Scribbles

My First Sunburn

2009-05-01T07:32:00.000-07:00

Today I am blogging because I had my first sunburn in 18 years of life.

It's really funny. My back and arms are red. My little sister says I look like a monster ^o^. RAWR! It feels like yokoyoko has been splashed on my shoulders, and when I touch my skin it's hot.

I really think it's funny. It's different because normally my body is pale and my skin is cold.

I was sitting in the afternoon sun with my swimming costume on and I got chao da. ^o^

Now I know what it feels like to have a sunburn. It's cool. (I'm only saying this because it's my first time. Wehehhehhehheh.) And it's also painful T-T.

Everybody! Beware of the evil hot sun and the depleting ozone layer (what Mel actually means to say is that you shouldn't go around running with your skin exposed at high noon).

Clinics have aslo been suspended because of swine flu. I have premature holidays, which I'm actually thankful for as I had some catching up to do on certain issues. Anyways...

Happy Mayday everyone! Or whatever is left of it.

2009-03-11T06:50:00.000-07:00

This is funny. It made me think alot.

It would be horrible to lose someone! DX Wouldn't it?

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Disappointment
Commitment
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I don't exactly fear being alone though... -_-. Oh well.

I'm not trying to boast or anything, but you shuld try taking this quiz. It is super funny. Some of the questions are so weird.

Q) Isaiah said: "But those who wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings like ______."

a) angels
b) buffalo <--- What in the world is THIS?!?
c) butterflies <--- And this?
d) eagles

You know the Bible 100%!

Wow! You are awesome! You are a true Biblical scholar, not just a hearer but a personal reader! The books, the characters, the events, the verses - you know it all! You are fantastic!

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Close your eyes

2009-01-11T02:35:00.000-08:00

I found this on Hamham's blog and decided to it because it was so funny.

I happened to be listening to my limited collection of background music from 'ROonline' and 'Wizet' so I shall just use abbreviations.

1) Put you iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3) YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Ans: 'Forgotten path of time' by Wizet
(Which would probably mean... I've forgotten what you asked about...)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Ans: 'Henesys' by Wizet
(One moment while I consult the dictionary please.)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Ans: 'When morning comes' by Wizet
(... he doesn't have bad breath. ^o^)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Ans: 'Sleepless' by RO
(Due to the 3 projects and 1 ICA.)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
Ans: 'Finding forest' by Wizet
(How eco-friendly.)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Ans: 'Play chess in the air' by Yoko Kano
(That would have been very nice, but I really don't play chess.)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Ans: 'Leafre' by Wizet
(That's sad... o.o really sad.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ans: 'Out of curiosity' by RO
(Very curious questions ^o^)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Ans: 'Brassy Road' by RO
(That's probably where all my mathematical skills went to. T^T)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Ans: 'Timeless' by RO
(Or more like eternal. That's what God is right?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Ans: 'Flying a blue dream' by Wizet
(Erm... he must be VERY dreamy I guess XD.)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Ans: 'Rag all night long' by RO
(At night I transform into a gangster and...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
And: 'Al De Baran' by RO
(That's one of the brightest stars! Yeah! I wanna shine like a star!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
And: 'Good morning' by RO
(Good morning love, the world says hello! And I say hello too! ^o^)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Ans: 'Aeon' by RO
(Maybe they think I came from another era ^o^)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Ans: 'Elfwoods' by RO
(Ah...okay XD!)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Ans: 'Title' by RO
(Haha, what a nice idea.)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Ans: 'Through the tower' by RO
(My hobby is saving princesses locked up in high towers!)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Ans: 'Jupiros' by RO
(It's a word so mysterious it must be my biggest secret.)

WHAT IS THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Ans: 'Blue sky' by Wizet
(o.o if there are no blue skies my life would be so sad!)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Ans: 'Labyrinth' by RO
(Spooky.)

WHAT DO YOU REGRET?
Ans: 'Fairy Tale' by RO
(That my prince charming never came to save me?)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Ans: 'Upon the sky' by Wizet
(That would be so cool!)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Ans: 'Jazzy Funky Sweety' by RO
(Because that combination would sound awful.)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Ans: 'Not so far away' by RO
(...in the future.)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Ans: 'On your way back' by RO
(... if I realise I didn't bring my house keys. o.o)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Ans: 'Uncanny Lake' by RO
(I-i-is that his name? o.o)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Ans: 'Christmas in the 13th month' by RO
(Which is as non-existent as time travel.)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Ans: 'Good night' by RO
('cos my eyes hurt from studying.)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Ans: 'Close your eyes' by RO
(Okay, sure! ^o^)

There we have it. Yay! That was fun.

Up!

2008-12-17T06:17:00.000-08:00

Quite recently, I've been wondering what to do with my drawings.

So I'm putting them up on deviantART.

My username is PaperSurgeon. ^o^ That means my link is papersurgeon.deviantart.com

Happy browsing!

Nobody's child

2008-11-04T06:13:00.000-08:00

While browsing a photo album of mine, I happened to find this song.

It's such a sad song.

I wonder how come I didn't notice it when I was little.

I was slowly passing an orphan's home one day
And stopped there for a moment just to watch the children play
Alone a boy was standing and when I asked him why
He turned with eyes that could not see and he began to cry

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
I'm like a flower just growing wild
No mommy's kisses and no daddy's smile
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

People come for children and take them for their own
But they all seem to pass me by and I am left alone
I know they'd like to take me but when they see I'm blind
They always take some other child and I am left behind

No mother's arms to hold me or soothe me when I cry
Sometimes it gets so lonely here I wish that I could die
I'd walk the streets of heaven where all the blind can see
And just like all the other kids there'd be a home for me

I just can't seem to figure out
Why the folks all pass me by
Cause I know that it's true that God takes
Little blind children with him in the sky
And they tell me that I'm oh so pretty
And they seem to like my big curls of gold
But then they take some other little child
And I'm left here all alone

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
I'm like a flower just growing wild
No mommy's kisses and no daddy's smile
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

It really made me think about exactly what sort of nonsense this is --->And they tell me that I'm oh so pretty/ And they seem to like my big curls of gold/ But then they take some other little child/ And I'm left here all alone

People can be so mean sometimes. But that's because people are people. Even so, there is always God.

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."

I am your perfect earth specimen.

2008-10-14T07:43:00.000-07:00

Four people think:

I'm perfectly capable of delivering a baby on the bus,

but no one would trust me with their car keys.

I would probably frizzle every gadget put into my hand

and at the same time,

I'd be too honest to lie and get away with it.

I'd supervise your whole art collection ($$$),

but I have no bargaining skills to haggle down the price ($$$).

I'd never be late,

though my mathematical powers are somewhere far and away.

Almost everyone wants to swap parents with me,

maybe 'cos they also want me to be their child. ^o^

No one would suspect me of commiting a crime...

No one who expect me yakking loudly on the phone in the train...

No one would think I'd ever party...

Seems like four people think I'm some sort of angel.

That's not a bad thing really, really. ^o^

But more accurately, I tell you what I am:

I'm your perfect earth specimen! Because my life is stranger than a science fiction!

For all those who simply don't get it... I was at MINDS cafe playing 'true colours'. It's a fun game, really. And I won ^o^

The 'SRuA' syndrome (Sudden Realisation upon Awakening Syndrome)

2008-10-09T02:14:00.000-07:00

Mel how could you be so blur!

Mel how could you be soooooooooooooooooooooooooo BLUR!

I really can't believe myself.

It's a disease I tell you! This blurness!

It happened like that time I wrecked my head for one whole afternoon and one whole night because I didn't get the trick to 'Fuzzy Wuzzy', and then the next day when I got up, went to the bathroom and stared at the mirror then it struck me!

Then today when I was looking at this picture on deviantart, I thought the pink was very pretty as well as the floral printed chairs. So happily, being the Mel who likes floral print, I put it as my desktop wallpaper.

It was only five minutes after getting up from my afternoon nap, I was going to look for an email from my teacher when I turned on the computer and saw this on my big fat screen staring straight at me!

I really wonder how I COMPLETELY MISSED THE WHOLE POINT OF THE PICTURE!!!

This picture.

Yes, I mean this picture.

MELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL! I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE SO BLUR!
T-T

My favourite~

2008-10-07T20:58:00.000-07:00

I'm supposed to be doing some scribbles now for pieces that have been assigned to me. But right now, my brain is dead.

So while I wait for my inspiration, I shall do this little quiz I found on Oli's blog. It was amusing after I tried the first few entries.

THE QUIZ (From Doodooyang!)

"Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation."

1) The age you'll be on your next birthday:
Ans: 18

I'm not very sure why I got a volcanic eruption... but okay...

2) A place you'd like to travel to:
Ans: Somewhere with fishies.

I actually had something more like a river cruise in mind... -_-

3) Your favourite food:
Ans: Sashimi

4) Your favourite pet:
Ans: Squishy

This really looks nothing like the Squishy I have.

5) Your favourite song:
Ans: Hmm... SACSS School Song!

I have no clue who this is though...

6) Your favourite TV show:
Ans: Iljimae, best korean drama I've seen.

7) Your screen name/nickname:
Ans: Mummy Mel

8) Your first job:
Ans: Dental assistant.

9) Your dream job:
Ans: Taitai ^o^

O.O

10) A bad habit you have:
Ans: Forgetting

11) The thing you'd like to do before you die:
Ans: Find my toys a new home.

There we have it.

Cheers!

Feet?

2008-10-04T08:14:00.000-07:00

It's suddenly struck me that I haven't really drawn any nice feet!

Then it struck me that I CAN'T LOOK AT THE BOTTOM OF MY OWN FEET AND DRAW THEM AT THE SAME TIME! (Of course unless I hold them up at my face, that would really hurt. Or look at the mirror! But who knows how long I can hold out for either!)

Isn't there a formula for drawing feet, like there is a formula for drawing hands or faces or bodies? I think there should be one.

Ohoh! And I must put this down, this amuses me so. Part of it was taught by Luanie, and I discovered the rest along the way. It was quite fun writing this out! Do you know that dentists study teeth in the same way? In fact, the essays I can write on a tooth might actually be longer than what I wrote here on a hand. ^o^

The formula for drawing hands (Frontal and Ventral planes)

The palm of the hand is roughly square.

The four fingers of the hand fall within a square of the same dimensions of the palm.

If open, the first three fingers have the same vertical line axis as the palm. The last finger is at an angle.

Placement of the fingers.

The thumb is usually slightly more than half of the palm. The thumb has two joints. It branches of midway of the palm, the first joint usually placed about 3/4 way on the palm, from the wrist up. The thumb extends slightly over the first joint of the first finger. It is usually tilted to distally from the long axis of the hand.

The first three fingers extend parellel to the long axis of the palm. Thus their branching off point is around the same. Each of them have three joints. The height of these fingers are variable, but the middle finger is usually the longest.

The last finger may be parallel to the long axis of the palm, when the fingers are placed side by side. When opened, the angle from the third finger to the last finger is considerably larger than the other finger to finger spaces. This makes it look like it is tilted at an angle. The second joint of this finger is located midway between the first joint of the third finger and the last joint of the last finger is located at the seond joint of the third finger.

There is a curve that runs through the fingers. It starts from the first finger and ends at the last finger. The crest of curvature is at the middle finger. The gradient between the first and middle finger is gentle, and it dips steeply till it comes to the last finger. The second and last joint of the fingers follow this curve when the hand is closed. When opened, all the joints follow this curve.

Divisons of the fingers

The thumb has two joints. The line below the first joint towards the palm is not a joint, just a flap of skin.

The rest of the fingers have three joints and therefore, three parts. The length of the fingers can be divided into four equal units. The ratio according to parts starting from the wrist can be written like this: 2:1:1 The finger nail is about half of the last part.

Lines of the palm

The length of the palm can be divided into four parts. 3/4 way from the wrist, two lines start from each side of the palm. The line towards the thumb curves towards the wrist and branches of into two lines. The line away from the thumb curves away from the wrist. The lines usually extend to about three fingers long.

Nene! Do you think you can write one on the foot as well?

~An Asian reverie~

2008-09-26T19:23:00.000-07:00

Just yesterday, I was pretty bored, so I tried experimenting with my older sister's phone camera.

I don't really like it, because the colour always looks a bit bluish and the images are kind of fuzzy. ToT Or maybe it's just because my hands shake and I have erm, no real photography skills XD.

In the end, I changed everything to sepia mode. >.<

Luke looks so scholarly, holding a page ripped out from an old Sec 3 chinese writing practice book that I had apparently, never practiced on before. Maybe it isn't so apparent in this picture, but the taselled binding was actually a Beijing olympics handphone strap which had the panda tweezed out. ^o^

About the set: The lamp in the background is something Anna gave me. But I lost the lightbulb, and I thought I'd never be able to use it till I did this. Also, the picture of the tsunami in the background is actually... a lunch box wrapper. Hah! I bet you didn't know that.

Lying amongst the plastic flowers I pulled out from my mum's flower arrangement jug.

Oh well, plastic flowers for plastic dolls ^o^.

I'm very sorry to say this, but he looks like a Geisha here. >.< Maybe I overdid it by adding the silk curtains.

And please don't be mistaken. I didn't sew those clothes for him. I just took two pieces of cloth and bundled him up, which might explain why he looks like he's wearing a bathrobe instead of a kimono.

I really hope that soon, someone can help me make nice sets and take proper photographs!

That's why I'm chop-ing Hamham after the exams! Because I'm her number one fan!

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

When we sit down and sew

2008-09-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

I'm really glad that Luke's been around...

Although he's heavy and his hair keeps falling off his head. Bleh!

For the past few days/weeks I've been lugging him over to my grandparents house with a bag of scraps to put together a few clothes for him. So far I'm still at the basics, and I haven't gotten past three pieces of clothes. However, I do like sitting out in the garden with grandma and the sewing machine, and Luke (who just sits there to hold the tacking needle and unpicker or I'll misplace them). It's quite lovely because there's a park nearby and you hear birds in the morning. Then it rains and the weather is cool. Grandma will have one sided conversations with Luke. Something like:

Grandma: See, you're so lucky. She doesn't make clothes for herself but she makes them for you.

Me: Yah lah Luke, this is all your fault.

Grandma: (turns to Luke and gives him a pat) Poor thing. She wants to make them and she scolds you.

Luke:... (obviously he can't say anything XP)

Oh well, who wants to make clothes when you can buy them.

But still, I never thought I'd been spending time with my grandma and grandpa this holidays. I have lunch over with them. ^o^ It makes me very happy!

It's also fun to get him to pose when I draw.

You might think this is dumb, but I've never used a human model is my own art sessions. The people and things I draw come out of my imagination.(The only time I really ever did was in NAFA, when my classmate posed for 15mins then gave up because he was so tired but Luke can't ever get tired. Wahahaha.) Once what I drew only looked right when I remembered right. And if it looked wrong... that meant... er... haha.

Not that he's human, but having him around is wonderful, because my drawings have actually changed. He allows me a better grasp of perspective, space, anatomy and shades (which is something I have neglected since it's hard to picture light in my imagination). He's not as good as a real human model in many ways... his muscles cannot be flexed, his balance cannot be compared with that of a person's, and his facial expression is fixed. But then again, he can do many things that humans can't... to shut up and sit quietly in ridiculous poses for insane lengths of time. And he's so pretty too. ~^-^~

Of course... I don't change clothes in my room anymore because it feels odd when he's sitting there staring up with his pretty blue eyes which can't actually see. I guess because he looks human enough and I won't do that in front of a... human guy. Ucky!

But all in all, I'm really glad that Luke's been around!

In many ways, you could say, he's helped me.

Early Birthday Wishlist! ^o^

2008-09-01T21:45:00.000-07:00

My birthday will be coming in about one and a half months time.

So I thought I better put this up, because in case any of you kind, dear souls out there who wants to get me a present XD, you might need to prepare yourself because these things don't come easy and might take time to find/do.

Here's Mel's birthday wish list ranked in order of 'most wanted' XD!

1) One litre of clean usable blood XD. Donated to the blood bank that is. (1l should be about 2 donors! Donations can be made at SGH. You have to be at least 18 years of age to do it without parental consent, above 45kg and not be a carrier of blood transmitted diseases.)

2) A pretty white wig for Luke, to match his eyes. And a pair of sneakers/boots! XD Clothes which are white and light blue and very much welcomed too! Wahaha, I'm so greedy. (Dealers can be found in Singapore on the internet XD)

3) An un-dented, un-cratered head of a female human, made of styrofoam. (This can be bought at art friend. It should be less expensive than a male head. And pleaseplease, do not get me more than one of this.)

4) A NKJV Bible. (Don't get me more than one of this either.)

5) A new set of lycra acrylics (I only use this brand. Wargh.)! With silver and gold bottles from folkart.

6) A big big canvass! XD A cheap brand will do. I think Pheonix should be quite affordable.

7) A strong powerful and glaringly bright standing light that will render you blind if you shine it at your eyes! 8D (I have no idea where to find one or how much it costs though...)

8) A new set of lycra acrylics! With silver and gold bottles from folkart. Wooden photo frames with those renascence patterns. Any size will do.

And and and, try not to get me two of the same thing. Unless it's for Luke, on whoes account I would happily accept all sorts of stuff. And unless you all want to go donate blood which I have absolutely no objection. XD

All things bright and beautiful

2008-08-31T02:22:00.000-07:00

All things bright and beautiful
All creatures great and small
All things wise and wonderful
The Lord Gd made them all

Isn't this world a wonderful world? ^o^

Lately, because I've been writing stories, I've been doing a little of my own research.

Olympics. Deep sea creatures. Dolls. sneakers. The more I learn, the more I feel like I grow. And all of it fascinates me.

I've been especially fascinated by pelagic creatures of late (these are sea creatures that inhabit the open sea). And the creatures of the abyss are some of the most bizzare. I had never imagine such weird and wonderful things would have existed on othis earth, far away from where people live.

^-^ The more I learn, the less I realise that I know. But it's good that way, because if a human knew everything, his brain would blow away... or it would turn to slush and ooze out of his nostrils. ^o^ Yay!

I think even when I grow up, and old, there'll alway be something around in this dynamic world to pique my interest.

My Doodle Buddy!

2008-08-24T06:19:00.000-07:00

Yay and yayness! Bubbles and joy!

Yesterday, Luke came!

I wasn't expecting him to come so soon, and I was actually designing a shirt for him. So when I saw the package I was like: Noooooo! Wait! I haven't made him clothes! Then I'll really have to make him wear a bath towel while I sew them! But either way, since I had waited so long for him, I closed up all the curtains and opened up the box. I had so much trouble with the box, and ended up cutting my fingers with the scissors in my attempt to open it. So painful! >.< But in the end, I managed to open it...

Then my sister stepped in.

Tabby: He looks mummified.

-stares at the huge amount of bubble wrap used to wrap Luke-

Me:...

Haha. Well, at least we didn't see him naked.

But even if he was, it was really magical to open up the bubble wrap. I started from the head of course. The first thing I probably noticed was that he was bald. ^o^ (That's because the wig was in a seperate container) Then I saw that his eyes were blue. Bright beautiful glassy blue, I think you could call it sterling blue(?), like the sky when its sunny. Apparently they select the eye colour for you so you don't get to chose, and I was fearing they'd give him some weird colour like green or red. But they gave him blue, such a beautiful blue too! XD

Just so if you people want to know, he's quite tall, 70cm in height. And he's kinda hard and heavy. I bet if I swung him hard enough at someone's head I could very well knock that person out. XD His skin is fair, fairer than mine and he's got a boyish features. And his joints, I love his range of movement. He poses very well and can stand on his own. His clavicle outline is so well defined I can actually imgaine he has a skeleton underneath.

Ohoh. I put on the wig next. For one, it's black and also it's one of those wigs that styles without mousse and its very fun to play with. I love styling his hair, so soft and malleable (if you could describe hair that way).

Then I noticed that he had been given a set of clothing...

A set of clothes, apparently that I didn't order.

At first I thought it was a mistake, and perhaps they had sent me the wrong parcel. Then I was worried that I would have to send the clothes back. Then I thought again, how nice it would be if I just put them on for him, since he hadn't any clothes. So first I dressed him. They had sent a full set of clothes (shoes aren't included) and a jacket which even by spending another $100 for a set of clothing wouldn't buy. (Putting on his clothes was really hard since I was doing my best not to look at his erm, lower half, and I managed quite sucessfully -_-".)

Then I picked up the delivery slip which read: Set 50, free gift.

I took a look at Luke. Yep, he looked very beautiful in those clothes. Then I started wondering why the company was so nice as to give me a set of clothes which would have earned them about another US$65 for free, including the jacket which was actually not for sale.

Two people had said to me: You were expecting him to come naked???

Actually I was... in fact, to be given that jacket...

At first I thought that maybe the company was being nice, since it was my first time purchasing from them I ought to get a little bonus. Then I thought about my previous post, and about how dolls are made. I also remembered an article on how some dollmakers refused to sell their dolls to some people who wouldn't love them and later sell them off. (If you still have no clue up till now, Luke is a doll.)

I began to imgaine how perhaps the dollmaker looked at Luke while wrapping him up in bubble wrap and said: "You know the guy who ordered you is a fifty year old doctor and he ordered you without clothes. Who knows if he can sew a decent outfit for you. Or maybe he's going to give you away to one of his disgusting little kids who's going to play with you for a few days then throw you aside. Or you might end up in some collectors cupboard and never be played with. Or perhaps he might even sell you off at a profit after customizing you some more."

"To him $900 probably isn't a big deal, but you're a big deal to me since I made you. But because he's already ordered you, you have to go. So you know what, at the very least I'll give you this set of clothes before we ship you off. They aren't for the customer, they're for you, so he won't have to pay a single cent. And I think I'll give you this jacket too. You better be grateful because I don't sell it to paying customers. I'm hoping very hard that wherever you go, and whoever gets you will treat you well."

Haha, at least, if were in the dollmaker's place I would have said that XD. I'm really really really so glad they gave him clothes. Tomorrow I'm going to sew another set for him.

And you know what? I've been thinking, it isn't the money I paid that gives Luke value. Nor is it the two months of savanging for lunch, or the scrimping and saving I did. It doesn't even lie in the reason why I bought him, to use him as a model to draw and design clothes on.

I guess his value lies in the fact that somebody bothered to put four/five weeks of effort into making him, carefully preparing him and sending him off with something to wear though he should have gone without it. After all, that was the reason why I was so attracted to dolls in the first place ^o^, to the photo of the old man working at an ugly unfinished doll in his lap. And the fact that he is modelled after a human really reminds me of the special relation that a creator shares with his creation.

I'll really do my best to take care of him. -Squeals- He's such a wonderful doodle buddy! XD Yes, and if you want to meet him, I think he'll be glad to meet you.

Yay and yayness! Bubbles and joy!

The purple pink passion fruit

2008-06-05T08:23:00.000-07:00

The purple pink passion fruit that swings in the tree,
let the purple pink passion fruit
beckon to me.

But as of today, (for it isn't time)
Let it sway, let is shine
Let it one day me mine

The purple pink passion fruit that bends the branch,
let the purple pink passion fruit
become my lunch.

But as of today, (it still isn't time)
Let it sway, let it shine,
Let it one day be mine

Purple pink passion fruit high in the air
Why should you be perched beyond my reach
and craftily tempt my longing stare?
Purple pink passion fruit why must you be there?

The purple pink passion fruit, now it is ripe
let the purple pink passion fruit
be the fruit that I bite.

by Melissa Quake
5/6/08

I haven't been writing poetry in sometime. Today inspiration struck. What an odd poem , I guess I must be really longing for something cool and juicy.

Designed

2008-04-06T23:05:00.000-07:00

This is Luke.

Luke is a dollfie.

While I was in Japan, in Kinokuniya (which so happens to be seven stories high), I chanced upon a book in the art section which was about the art of doll making. I've always liked dollfies, ever since I saw the first time I saw one. I was absolutely enchanted by their fair flawless skin, their brilliant glass eyes and their finely sculptured features. So I picked up the book.

The book was filled with pictures of all sorts of dollfies, all with different clothes, each with a unique face and built. When I came back to Singapore, Oli showed me a couple of dollfies online, so I went to look them up on my own. I was amazed at the detail of their facial features, especially their eyelids. In fact, some of them had teeth!

But as I was looking through the book, one picture in particular leapt out at me.

It was a picture of a life-size dollfie, still unfinished and ugly, lying in the lap of the doll maker. It was still rough, and without hair, and its maker was leaned over it, working on it, filling in the details. So much effort and thought must have gone into making the doll! Every single dollfie goes through a process of being made: it has to be deigned, its core is cut out, its body is shaped, its joints are crafted and linked, its skin painted. Then when it's done, the doll maker clothes it and gives it a name.

I was impressed. I thought to myself: he must love his doll very much.

There is something else which goes through the same process of design. It starts of as a string of atoms: carbon, hydrogen and oxygen, atoms that link together in a specific order to form amino acids, the most basic building blocks to a world of designs! As a single cell floats down to the womb, the chain continues to replicate and a body begins to form.

Every single person goes through a process of being made: a person has to be deigned, his core organs (the CNS, the heart and the bone are some of the first organs to form), his body is shaped, his joints are crafted and linked (yes, the bones take time to come into contact, even after birth), his skin gains its colour! And unlike a doll, a person can think, move as he pleases, feel sensations and emotions. He can grow, he can respond, he can live and can love. Not only are his physical features unique, but so are his personality, his quirks and traits and history.

If a dollfie, which can neither speak nor feel is so meticulously designed, what more a living breathing human being?

If a dollfie, which can't respond to its creator, is named and clothed, what more the person who responds to his creator?

And if a dollfie, though so carefully crafted is unable to love the doll maker which brought it to being, don't you think it's sad that humans who are given the capacity to love don't always love their maker?

I think it is.

The joy of Outlining

2008-03-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

Today I have discovered the joy of outlining a piece of penciled work.

Luanie brought all sorts of inks and quill nibs to outline a piece of work I had penciled, but in the end i ended up outline it myself. There were about four types of inks, which apparently had funny properties of their own. XD

I outlined a picture of a story character of mine (both pictures are from a story I've been at). Outlining is so fun. I should do it as a hobby and maybe one day I'll actually complete the story I've been wanting to draw for so long... (strains eyes far into the future and sees something that vaguely resembles the words: fat hope). Thanks for the quills Luanie (and the bottle of sparkling blackcurrant thingie). I owe you.

Luanie also did the inking (the shading), and it's given the picture such delightful depth. We should do this more often yeah Luanie? I really love the pretty pretty shades you've filled in. Apparently, Luanie did the inking and clean up, and I did the penciling and outlining. I feel like I have learnt so very much today, and I'd love to try my hand at inking too.

So anyways, here's a little picture for my precious daughter Oli, with lots of love from Luanie and I. I found the color turns out best when scanned so...

Sorry for holding onto your manga so long. I will return it asap. T-T

Luanie, you can save the scan from here. It turned out quite nicely.

I AM...

2008-03-08T23:04:00.000-08:00

I AM:

LOOKING FOR A GOOD STORY!!! (NOVEL, COMIC, SHOW WHATEVER!)

If anyone knows of a good story, please let me know kay? I'm bored to tears just doing housework, and I want a good story! I really like stories which are funny, have romance and are either fantasy or sci-fic stories.

YEP!

So let me know if anyone finds one!

That's all I came to blog about.

XD

After a long absence... Mel is BACK! XD

2008-02-12T06:08:00.000-08:00

Someone once told me that I have cold hands because of bad circulation. That led to a conversation about sleeping.

Someone told me that light sleepers dream a lot.

And someone told me that people who dream in colour are crazy.

Someone said all your hidden thoughts surface when you dream.

Just this afternoon I had a dream in which I got something I prayed for, for someone else. It was one of those things you want for them, but at the same time wish it didn't happen for your sake. Then I woke up feeling a little happy and a little sad and somewhat, uh... torn?

I wonder how it'd be if that prayer was really answered. I wonder if I'd be jumping for joy, but I think I might just be crying buckets and buckets.

Sometimes we do the craziest things.

Like me, I dream in colour.

Oh well. XD

Hohum.

2007-11-27T22:00:00.000-08:00

I have come to a conclusion that many jobs out there are underappreciated, basically because of the lack on knowledge of the patronizing party.

For example, I heard of a teacher telling her bunch of pre-schoolers that visiting a dentist is 'very painful'. As though dentists are maniacs paid to kill their patients or something.

Or another example is how people in the shoe shop always get complaints that they take too long. We all do know they have to memorise box numbers and climb ladders to dig for a pair of foot wear.

I used to think soccer players were dumb blokes who bonded over chasing one ball across a muddy grass field. But of course, I never really thought of the strategy they had to put in.

We really ought to be more understanding with each other. I've got to work on that one too.

T^T

2007-10-25T02:35:00.000-07:00

Today, during my attachement, I contracted a very contagious infection...

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T^T

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SORE EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T^T

It's very painful.

And very red.

I'm a biohazard eveybody. Please stay away from me.

-playing with life-

2007-09-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

YAY! Mel's going to tell you a story today! This was something that I heard on the radio.

Once there was an acomplished woman, who ran a big buisness, had great power over her subordinates and earned big bucks. Technically, she thought that nothing could shake her, not even that case filed against her. She had run into a twitch of illegal buisness, something as compared to all her wealth and power looked insignificant. Her friends told her to engage a good lawyer but hey, she ran her life, she was in charge, who was to tell her what to do...

Of course, she was in charge untill the problem snowballed into a something larger... MUCH LARGER! She began having second thoughts about her power, her prestige, maybe she had better take some advice. One friend had mentioned a good lawyer, so she snuck down to his office with her case.

He looked over her case, nodded a bit, then shook his head.

"Sir, can you help me?" the woman was puzzled by his responce.

"I could defend this case," the lawyer said. The woman's face lit up.

"Good, can I hire you?" she said.

At this, the lawyer sighed. "Well, I wish I could," he frowned, "but you see ma'm, this morning I was appointed judge over your case. You came an hour too late."

You're in control of your life... or are you? Don't wait till your problems catch up with you to find the solution. One day, when everything ends, will you have a defendant, or will he be your judge?

Oh No!

2007-09-13T23:41:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYONE! THE WORLD SAYS 'HELLO'!!!

Something terrible has happened.

I thought I was done with it when I finished up a bag of full cream and cookie chocolates (yes, the ingredients read: full cream milk). But NO! No, out of a sudden, overnight, the fridge was stocked full of sugary, chocolatey doughnuts, apple crumble and a fat bag of gummy bears!

-bangs head mercilessly onto the wall-

HOW CAN??? HOW CAN THEY DO THIS TO ME??? A dental hygiene/therapy student and they load all these delicious, detectable irressitable confectionary into the kitchen! I don't even know where the gummy bears and doughnuts with chocolate, blueberry and almond flakes came from. RAWR!

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

They're tempting me... and I already like sucumb to picking at the gummy bears.

Bad Mel! Bad bad Mel!

I don't want my teeth to rot, but the gummy bears are just way too colourful and attractive! T^T

By the way, my results came back. Thank God for them, I have very pretty looking results that make me smile.

But the swwwwwwweeeeeeeeeettttts in the fridge are making me want to cry! I shouldn't be eating so much of them! It's just not healthy, sitting at home growing fat of an over excess of carbohydrates and cavity creating dysacharides! And as you can see, I'm already pretty high. Thiiiissss shoooouuuullldddd noooottt beeee thhhheee caaassseee!

Ah, I better sign off before I go hysterical.

-runs to exit throwing confetti in her wake-

Another quiz thingie

2007-09-12T06:17:00.000-07:00

This is terrible, my blog has become a place where I air my opinions in the form of pointless quizzes. Where did they originate from anyway? I'd like to know.

The "20 Qs n As " game

- Each player of this game starts off by giving 5 weird things about themselves.
- People who get tagged need to write in their blog of their own weird things as well, and state the rules clearly.
- In the end, you'll select 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

Here are my five weird things.
No.1) My name is Melissa.
No.2) My surname is Quake.
No.3) The first word in my Chinese name is 'Zhi'.
No.4) The second word in my Chinese name is 'Wan'.
No.5) My alias is Evangeline.
I assure you. All this is very weird. XD

1. Someone knocks on your door at 2am, who do you want it to be?

- Anyone, just not me. The door to my room is transparent and can be doubley hard to see at that time of night. (Yes, people have failed to notice and banged into it before...)

2. Your boss tells you he/she will give you a $20 raise if you'll do your job naked, do you stay and take the raise?

- That's a little cheap for good art, and no. -whispers- That's not very moral.

3. Put yourself in a nutshell.

- Hard to squeeze in, don't you think?

4. Ever seen a ghost?

- Does my sec school art teacher coun... Okay, I will not be mean.

5. Happy with your body?

- Yeps, I'm cool with it. I've got a nice functional body which I should be grateful for.

6. something about you?

- I like doodoo mushrooms. I like blue doodoo mushrooms. Especially those which are big and huggable. -cuddles-

7. A place you wanna visit?

- Right now, it's my bed.

8. A job you'll never do, no matter how much you were paid ?

- Ah, this reminds me of my sociology lesson about status inconsistancy. My lecturer gave us the example of a sucessful prostitude. I wouldn't like being that.

9. a band/group you thought was cool when you were 13?

- The SAC choir... untill I joined it of course.

10.you have a nightmare, who's the first person you think to call?

- The person I had a nightmare of. Then I'd scold him/her for being so evil as to botch up my dreams. XD

11.wanna have kids before you're 30?

- Preferably, as a woman gets older the chances of unhealthy offspring tend to be higher.

12.a memory from sec school.

- The tuckshop woman sold cheese tofu and canned soup.

13.ever had a crush on a friend's parent?

- Nope. :)

14.do you look more like your mom or dad?

- I think I look a bit like both. But my granpa told me I was picked up from the rubbish bin... Ahem, oh wells. XD

15.something you've always wanted to learn to do?

- To memorise all the colours found in the dictionary. Yes... it's lame I know. But hey, I'm just answering the question.

16.how you'd like your life to be in 10 years?

- I'd like it to feel 10 years older. I'll be 26 then, so I hope I don't lag to badly in my teenage years. Not likely.

17.something you learned this year.

- You can die of brain infection if you pop a pimple. It's true.

18.what do you want for your birthday?

- A BIG B-I-G doodoo mushroom. And the star projection kit. But they're expensive.

19.name 4 things u did yesterday.

- I woke up, told myself I had to hang the clothes, stared at the gray clouds and smiled.

20. last item you bought yourself.

- Breakfast from 7eleven. I try not to though because it can be quite costly.

Tagging:

1) EDEL!!! BWAHAHAHAHA!
2) Mel C
3) Luanie. You don't ever do this do you?

Pillows are chewy~

2007-09-06T18:51:00.000-07:00

I got this quiz from Sharshar...

Erm...

Hmm...

Haa...

None of these answers are actually my own. I just googled them and pasted them in.

COMPLETE THESE SENTENCES.
THE 20 SENTENCE CRAP!
Tag 3 people to do the meme when completed. Oh. And NO tags backs.

Here it goes..

1. Love is: merely to be in a state of perceptual anesthesia.

2. I will always: Love You -lyrics by Whitney Houston

3. Forever: Living Products has dedicated itself to seeking out nature's best sources for health and beauty and sharing them with the world.

4. I never want to: hear that sound again'. Five British soldiers have died under 'friendly fire'.

5. My cell phone is: tiny for easy portability. ... So if my cell phone is so great, why don’t I just throw away my desktop phone?

6. When I wake in the morning: i stretch my legs and feet up as higher as i can, and then walk in the air as long as i can before i put them down to ground ...

7. I get annoyed at: Kroger fuel by the $55 limit on debit cards. It takes $70 to $80 for me to fill up and I have to scan everything twice. ...

8. Parties are: guided to avoid witch-hunting, adopt a constructive approach ...

9. My dog is: As Dirty Socks: And Other Funny Family Portraits (Hardcover)

10. Kisses are the worst when: you fart while kissing.

11. Today I am: a Clown" is the sixth episode of The Simpsons' fifteenth season. The episode aired on December 7, 2003.

12. Tonight I will: Eat Your Corpse (<------ some people are just gross don't you think?)

13. Tomorrow I will: pay $10.00 hr per man.

14. I really want: is seamless integration between Excel on the frontend and an online relational database on the backend.

15. When I looked at myself in the mirror today: i gave a big grin at myself and told myself not to emo... (<----- underneath this I found Sharon's blog, so I put it in. Whee!)

16. I will drive my car: to the system of car control, which is a way of approaching and negotiating hazards that is methodical, ...

17. A word that rhymes with “PARK” is: (Hmm, can't find a google answer for this one) Park? Dark?

18. Bright or Dark Room?: bright. "Dark Room" is for developing for photos.

19. If I’m alone in a room with two beds, I: (I can't google this one right, so I'll answer) I'll eat cornflakes in the morning.

20. The last thing I said to someone was: (I have to answer this one own my own too...) Can I use the computer?

Now I tag: 1) Luanie-monster 2) Anna 3) And Hamham. There we have it. XD

Ohohoho! So funny!

2007-08-29T05:13:00.000-07:00

I'll credit my dear Hamham for this. Seriously. It's funny.

-choke, cackle, splutter-

Okies, you know I refer to some people by certain names right? Scroll down and find yours.

I am Mummy Mel:

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Mummy Mel!

Oranges, lemons, watermelons, pineapples and Mummy Mel are all berries.
Mummy Mel can smell some things up to six miles away.
It takes forty minutes to hard-boil Mummy Mel!
Mummy Mel can be seen from space.
An average beaver can cut down Mummy Mel every year.
A thimbleful of Mummy Mel would weigh over 100 million tons!
The number one cause of blindness in the United States is Mummy Mel.
It is impossible to fold Mummy Mel more than seven times.
Contrary to popular belief, Mummy Mel is not successful at sobering up a drunk person, and in many cases she may actually increase the adverse effects of alcohol.
The Vikings believed that the Northern lights were caused by Mummy Mel as she rode out to collect warriors slain in battle.

The definition of Sharshar:

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Sharshar!

Some people in Malaysia bathe their babies in beer to protect them from Sharshar!
Cats use their Sharshar to test whether a space is large enough for them to fit through.
If you lace Sharshar from the inside to the outside, the fit will be snugger around your big toe!
When provoked, Sharshar will swivel the tip of her abdomen and shoot a jet of boiling chemicals at her attacker.
Sharshar has a memory span of three seconds.
If you break Sharshar, you will get seven years of bad luck.
Most bottles and jars contain at least twenty-five percent recycled Sharshar!
In the Spanish edition of Cluedo, Sharshar is the victim!
The first domain name ever registered was Sharshar.com.
Britain's Millennium Dome is more than double the size of Sharshar!

What it says about Oli-poopoo:

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Oli-poopoo!

About one tenth of Oli-poopoo is permanently covered in ice.
There are roughly 10,000 man-made objects the size of Oli-poopoo orbiting the Earth!
Oli-poopoo is the only king without a moustache on the standard pack of cards.
The porpoise is second to Oli-poopoo as the most intelligent animal on the planet!
In her entire life, Oli-poopoo will produce only a twelfth of a teaspoon of honey.
The fingerprints of Oli-poopoo are virtually indistinguishable from those of humans, so much so that they could be confused at a crime scene!
The pharoahs of ancient Egypt wore garments made with thin threads of beaten Oli-poopoo!
The original nineteenth-century Coca-Cola formula contained Oli-poopoo!
In Japan it is considered rude to talk with Oli-poopoo in your mouth.
Oli-poopoo was declared extinct in 1902.

And this one tells you about Luanie-monster:

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Luanie-monster!

In the 1600s, tobacco was frequently prescribed to treat headaches, bad breath and Luanie-monster!
Luanie-monster once lost a Dolly Parton lookalike contest.
Luanie-monster is worth her weight in gold - literally.
Devoid of her cells and proteins, Luanie-monster has the same chemical makeup as sea water!
Fish travel in schools, but whales travel in Luanie-monster.
Luanie-monster can only be destroyed by intense heat, and is impermeable even to acid.
Medieval knights put the skin of Luanie-monster on their sword handles to improve the grip.
Luanie-monster can taste with her feet!
US gold coins used to say 'In Luanie-monster we trust'.
If you chew gum while peeling Luanie-monster then it will stop you from crying!

And Anna-banana:

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Anna-banana!

The only Englishman to become Anna-banana was Nicholas Breakspear, who was Anna-banana from 1154 to 1159.
Anna-banana can't sweat.
Thirty-five percent of the people who use personal ads for dating are Anna-banana.
Humans share over 98 percent of their DNA with Anna-banana!
Anna-banana is often used in place of milk in food photography, because milk goes soggy more quickly than Anna-banana.
Anna-banana has only one weakness - the colour yellow.
The Asteroid Belt between Mars and Jupiter is made entirely of Anna-banana.
Anna-banana can be seen from space!
Anna-banana can live for up to a week without a head!
Only one child in twenty will be born on the day predicted by Anna-banana.

That's all the lame stuff I shall put up today. Have fun.

2007-08-22T23:10:00.000-07:00

I just dropped that last paper! Whee~

And since dear Sharshar asked me to do this, I shall do it. Muchlove. Don’t forget our date tonight yeah~ Ehehehehe.

List out the top 5 presents you wish for:
*the gifts are not in order of preference*
This is so you’d know what to get for me on my birthday ^-^ (what a vulgar hint =P)
1. I wish someone would dedicate a story to me~ *wistful look*
2. A more functional clothes wardrobe. It’s the third time the door dropped off.
3. AN EMO BUNNY! XD *ahem* actually, a new stuff toy.
4. I wish to go overseas with all my buddies too. But I’m too poor. -sobs-
5. Santa clause?

Answer the following questions

- The person who tagged you is: Sharshar~

Your relationship with her/him is: Ex-classmate! Buddy! Friend! Muchlove!

Your 5 impressions of her/him:
1. Stable- like a good chair with four feet.
2. Huggable!- well, I think she is.
3. Sane- at least more than me.
4. Mushy? Generally I don’t mushy people, but Sharshar’s mushiness is good. =P
5. Friendly- Yes! Friendly people are the best!

The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
Hmm… I can’t decide which is better:
1) She went to grad night because I asked her to! After months (was it really that long?) of persuading she got her gown on the day before (or the day itself) grad night.
2) She reads for me to listen~ I think that’s amazing…

The most memorable words he/she had said to you:
After she had read a particular fanfic I wrote, she buried her head in the file and went:
"It‘s so… sad… -there was some whining noise in between-"
(I remember that =P It was funny.)

If he/ she becomes your lover, you will:
Become an offensive object to Rod.
(But seriously… same sex relationships are unethical.)

If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
Just about nothing. Sharshar’s the best.

If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
Quoting Billy (Shar and Oli should get this): “Goodbye cruel world!” You get the idea.

If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
Because of Billy! (-points and accusing finger at Billy-) I’m just saying this cause I need someone to blame right?

The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
Get her out of her house and take her on a shopping spree!

Your overall impression of him/ her is:
She’s the bestest.

How do you think people around you will feel about you?
That I am the nicest, goodest, smartest, prettiest… (everyone else goes: BOO!)

The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is /are:
I have no cavities.

On the contrary. the characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
My LTM (Long Term Memory, for those who don’t know) doesn’t function as it should.

The most ideal person you want to be is:
Sir Standford Raffles because he gets his face printed on postage stamps.

For people that like and care for you, say something to them:
MUCHLOVE! MUCHLOVE! (I think you get the point)

Pass this quiz to 10 people...*drumrolllll*
(I’ll have to overlap this one cause I won’t have enough people to pass it to… so yes, those who get this double, it means that you MUST do it.)

1. Luanie-monster my dear God daughter.
2. Ahnana! -Pokes- Both Shar and I say you must do it ok?
3. Olioli~ best daughter
4. Hamham. Do this for muffin mummy.
5. Edel. You blog a lot no?
6. Hema- who I haven’t seen in ages!
7. Gracie- I know you come online…
8. Phildia~
9. Jessica~
10. Ros~ I’m sure you’ll have enough time on you hands to do this.

Who is No. 6 having a relationship with?
HARRY POTTER! But who can be sure?

Is No. 9 a female or male?
Female. ^-^ Yeps, aren’t they all?

If No. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Maybe Grace would like… (ahem) never mind.

How about No. 8 and 5?
Eeeeee… -collapses and expires loudly on the ground-

What is No.2 studying about?
Many things. Sciencey stuff. She’s in JC.

When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3?
Two, three days ago. Just popped by on the phone.

What kind of music band does No. 8 like?
Westlife…

Does No. 1 has any siblings?
Yesh.

Will you woo No. 3?
No. That would be child abuse. That’s not moral…

How about No. 7?
I have this plan of going up to her in a tux, getting down on one knee, holding two dozen roses and a sparkling ring, and saying: “Grace MARRY ME!” But I think she’d just exterminate me on the spot.

Is No. 4 single?
I guess so.

What's the surname of No. 5?
QUAKE! My surname too! Sisterly love~

What's the name of No. 10?
You’re just lazy to scroll up aren’t you?

What's the hobby of No. 4?
Running in a hamster wheel? What, she’s my Hamham.

Do No.5 and 9 get along well?
I don’t think they’ve actually conversed before…

Where is No. 2 studying at?
SAJC ^-^ am I right?

Talk something casually about No. 1?
She used to think her legs were bean sprouts, but that’s ok. Not everyone is that creative.

Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
-Coughcough- No… -shudders-

Where does No. 9 live at?
Jurong I think.

What colour does No. 4 likes?
Not very sure. Ask her.

Are No. 5 and 1 best friends?
Now why would they be?

Does No. 7 likes No. 2?
They’re fine with each other.

How do you get to know No. 2?We had 2 science monitors in my primary 5 class: No.2 and myself.

Does No. 1 have any pets?
A pikachu and a cat (both of which are really humans…)

Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
Oooooooooh yes, I loooooove her, but she’s so desperate to matchmake me off.

You knit me together in my mother's womb~

2007-08-14T22:11:00.000-07:00

Psalm 139: 13-16

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

People who say that life came about by accident probably are those who don't know their content well (or I dare say not at all). I'm supposed to specialise in teeth, and if you realise how much effort and planning takes place just to make a tooth 'begin', I'm pretty sure you'll agree that there is an intellegent designer.

Development of teeth

Deciduous teeth- begins at 20 weeks in utero (when you were the size of a green bean!)
Permanent teeth- Incisors to premolars: begins 20 weeks in utero- ends 10 months after birth. Molars: begins at 20 weeks in utero- ends 5 years after birth.

Imagine that! When you were the size of a green bean, your set of permanent teeth were being prepared in your mother's womb!

3 Developmental stages

1) Bud stage
Begins as epithelial ingrowth into the underlying connective tissue.

In other words, a bit of the gum on the surface pinches off and grows downwards and inwards.

2) Cap stage
The bud continues to proliferate. It becomes a cap shaped thing called the Enamel organ. The cap sits ontop of a lot of cells known as the Dental Papilla, which will in the future become the pulp. The cells surrounding the cap are known as the Dental Follicle and will become the future PDL. Dental Follicle provides nutrients to the developing tooth.

To simplify it: The pinched off part is called the enamel organ. The cells below it will one day become the pulp, and the cells surrounding it will become the fibres that help your tooth stick in the jaw.

3) Bell stage
Growth continues and the cap deepens into a 'bell' shape. The Dental Papilla begins deffrentiating into fibres and capillaries. The layer of enamel organ closest to the pulp is called the internal enamel epithelium. The layer of enamel organ on the periphery of the bell is called the external enamel epithelium. The cells of the dental papilla closest to the IEE begin to defferntiate into odontoblasts. The cells of the IEE begin to diffentiate into ameloblasts. Dentine and enamel formation commences.

The pinched off part grows bigger and the cells about it starts to transform into new kinds of specialised cells. Cells that make blood vessels, fibres, dentine and enamel. Then the dentine and enamel starts to form proper!

Dentinogenesis

1) Formation of uncalcified organic matrix

This stuff is known as predentine. Odontoblasts lay down dentine and pull away from the ADJ. Odontoblasts are therefore always located on the pulpal surface of the most recently formed predentine. Odontoblasts leave behind an extension as they recede, which later becomes enclosed in a dentinal tubule.

The cells making the dentine well... make it. They leave little bits of themselves in the dentine. Right now, the dentine is still soft.

2) Calcification

Takes place only when a fairly wide band of predentine has been formed. Starts in layers closest to the ADJ and advances pulpally. Globules of calcium salt are deposited in the matrix to make it hard.

This is just the longwided and complicated way of saying that the dentine becomes hard.

Amelogenesis

1) Organic matrix formation

Starts at the ADJ of each cusp tip or incisal edge after the first dentine is formed. Each ameloblast lays down a matrixnest to the newly formed dentine. Ameloblasts move away from the dentine, working in a line and thus enamel is deposited in layer.

Unlike dentine that is made to grow inwards. Enamel grow outwards.

2) Calcification

Calcification will begin in the first-formed matrix. The process is not uniform and there are periods of rest and sctivity. This causes incremental lines, the brown striae of retzius to form. Pits and fissures are formed where the growths from the various cusps unite. When the enamel formation of the cusps is almost complete, enamel formation at the cervical region begins. After enamel formation is completed, the ameloblasts atrophy and form the reduced enamel epithelium which degenerates upon tooth eruption.

Enamel grows hard as it is put down in layers... The cells on the enamel surface are washed away after the tooth comes into the mouth. Enamel once broken cannot grow back!

Root formation

Cementum formation

Only begins after the enamel and dentine formation has reached the future CEJ. Shape of the roots is mapped out by a growth from the IEE and EEE. This growth is called the hertwig's root sheath and i initiates dentine formation in the roots. Dentine formation continues as before. The root sheath starts to degenerate when the first layer of dentine has been laid down. As the root sheath breaks down, the connective tissue cells from the dental follicle come into contact with the root dentine and differntiate into cemetoblast. They deposite an organic matrix which is then calcified in layers. These are the incremental linesof salter. Cememtum grwoth continues throughout the life of the tooth.

After the happy dentine and enamel hit where the roots should begin, a membrane appears to shape the root. Dentine is laid down on this membrane which later dissapears. When it is gone, cells start forming cementum on the outside, which is a lifelong process.

b) PDL formation

Occurs at the same time as cementum is being laid down. Cells of the dental follicle deferentiate into fibroblasts and sythesize ground substance and fibres for the PDL. The fibres become embedded in the newly formed cementum and alveolar bone. They are constantly replaced as the toothe erupts.

Fibres that attach the tooth to the bone develop while the cementum is developing.

c) Alveolar bone formation

Develops from a V-shaped groove in the maxilla and mandible. The V-shaped groove contains toothbuds, alveolar nerves and blood vessels. Sone septae start to develop between the adjacent tooth buds. The bone then encloses the tooth buds to form the alveolus.

The jaw bone depresses and contains the developing teeth. It later seals up the teeth before the time of eruption.

Worship roster instructions

2007-08-13T06:11:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I wonder what goes on in our worship leader's mind. I happened to open up the roster and found this, which is indeed rather amusing.

In a case of worship leaders not being able to come for cell, please swap among the worship leaders for the month.
In a case of musicians not being able to come for cell, please sway among the musicians for the month.
In a case of no cell for that week, worship will be cancelled not brought back a week to the next week.
In a case of being unsure of what i meant on top, call or sms me.
In a case of not knowing my number or my email. its ******** (I can't put his real number on the net can I?) and ************@hotmail.com (or his email either -_-ll) respectively.
In a case of not having a case to make case for a case, please bang your head against the wall cuz IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! kiddin ah (me: <------------ What's this o.o?)

ps: i have labeled (number of songs) on the roster. but please check with Serena and Sam if there is High Quest first. if have then 1 song. if not then 3 songs
Thanks!

God Bless
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By the way, I was tagged by dear Sharshar to do the six... or is it ten weird habits. So er... rules: (refer to Shar's blog? Okay, I'll be nice and post them here...) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.

1) I like friedly people who talk alot (like my cutie baby Oli). Friendly people are nice people, and if they talk alot I'd have a lot to talk about too. ^-^

2) I like romance, do I really not look the type? Just as long as it's not too cheesy I'm perfectly fine with it.

3) I may be a dental student but I'm also still a sucker for mochi icecream, meiji chocolates and all sorts of cariogenic substances.

4) When I was a small kid, I had a crush on my next door neighbour. But now I can't help but think he's a perv -_-.

5) Gah! Still got 6 more to go! Er... I can't remember the origins of my email address, and I don't like people laughing at it because I think it's strange too but I'm too lazy to change it.

6) I like frogs and toads too. I think they're cute, and if you kiss them they become handsome princes right? Not that I've tried of course.

7) I don't understand how people can wear pants under their skirts. It's really stuffy.

8) I used to like playing in staircases and 'exploring' hidden places in shopping malls when I was a kid. Untill an evil autolock staircase door shut me in where there were a bunch of waiters sleeping all over the stairway.

9) Er... I generally (generally) like boys names that start with A, C, D, J, M, R, S, and T. I like girls names that start with B, C, D, G, H, J, K, L, Q, R, S, T and V. I like girl names more, for obvious reasons.

10) I think I'll only mature when I'm 26 years old. That's 10 years from now. I'm still a kid. I play with stuff toys and like candy.

There I've done it. That took so long to think about. Here are the next 6 I tag.

1) Luanie monster
2) HamHam!
3) Phildia~
4) Ros ^-^
5) Edel
6) Grace (awaken that dead blog of yours please)

The most beautiful rainbow~

2007-08-12T05:55:00.000-07:00

These past few days I've been pretty down. Not the exams of course, people like me have other things to think about besides exams. Anyways, I was walking to my grandparents' place when I decided to stop staring at my feet and start looking at the sky. It was there that I saw the most beautiful rainbow.

At first, I didn't realise that it was a rainbow, in fact I thought it was a colouful looking cloud. Most of the lower half of the cloud was grayish, against the sky, pale blue, the colour you'd get on an evening after the rain. Towards the upper edge of the cloud there was a smaller golden turf of vapour that just protruded from the larger and darker body. There were rays of sunlight coming out from behind the big shadowy cloud, so clear that they appeared as transparent white rods in the sky. And sandwiched between the dark layer and the golden layer was a fuzzy mass of colours: pink... blue... a prominant green.

I halted, stared at cloud, which was I now come to note, was outlined in a brilliant pink radiance. I hadn't seen anything so beautiful in a long time, so I picked up my phone, dialed my sister and asked her to come to the road to look at it. By the time she had come out, the splats of colours had taken the form of well-defined bands that had a crystalline quailty. A rainbow arched across the cloud, running over the golden light and plunging into the shadowy depth (if that is an appropriate way to describe it).

I began to phone all my good friends, screaming for them to see the rainbow before it vanished.

During the course of time, another rainbow appeared on the side of the cloud, the same way the first one had, only that this one came faster. The sunlight was more obvious now, and an entire shaft cut the clouds in such a way that the rainbow seemed as if it had split into a few parts. It was very very beautiful! Very very very beautiful! It was very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very (pasues to catch breath) very very very BEAUTIFUL!!! Words are pathetic and imagination fails entirely when I try to describe that scene God had hung up in the air.

So I stood there, in the middle of the road staring at it so hard and trying to imprint the picture in my mind. I kept thinking of Genesis, of an ark and a flood and a promise. Of Ezekiel, strange winged creatures and a radiance about the Lord. And of Revelations and a rainbow that encircled the throne.

And I just kept thinking how it was so very very very beautiful. And if what we see on earth is merely a shadow of what we'd see in heaven, then heaven must be very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very (pasues to catch breath) very very very BEAUTIFUL!!!

When I rushed to my grandparents' house, two more fainter rainbows had sprung up. One on the other end of the cloud and one in the middle, a tiny delicate arch. My grandfather had been trying to take a picture of it, but the camera couldn't catch the colours. Mine neither (I had been trying to take photos, but all I got was a badly shaded sky with a white lump of nothingness where the rainbow should have been.)

But I really did cheer up after seeing the rainbows. Rainbows, in a cliche way, remind you of beauty that comes after a storm.

Eat chocolates with me~

2007-08-07T22:29:00.000-07:00

I've just come from doing my sociology paper. Thank God for my good marks! I thought I'd never pass due to being superduper busy, and returning so late at night I barely got a decent study time. But hey, we all get 24 hours in a day don't we? Now I'm having a little chill out session before I start mugging my psychology.

I'll put up a few fun quizes for your entertainment.

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Accepting

No matter what a friend says or does, you try your best to understand it.
And your friends feel like they can tell you anything. You don't judge.

You know that friendship is a journey - with a lot of ups and downs.
If you and a friend grow apart, you get over it quickly... and leave the potential for future friendship open.

You tend to have many friends from many walks of life. Anyone you meet is could become a friend.
In fact, you are especially interested in people who are a little different than you. Seeing life from another perspective is something you cherish.

Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else with their secrets

You really can't be friends with: Dogmatic, stubborn people

Your friendship quote: "Love is blind, but friendship closes its eyes."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

You Are a Chocolate Cake

Fun, comforting, and friendly.
You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality.
People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.

What Kind of Cake Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.
People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.
You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.
Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

I like white lillies bette =P

You Are a Christmas Sweater!

Over the top, colorful, and totally flashy.
You're not afraid to be a little tacky.

What Crappy Christmas Gift Are You?

Moopamoop~

Nurses' Day Special

2007-08-02T01:48:00.000-07:00

It's a little known date outside of SHS or the hospitals for that matter, but there is this day, specially dedicated to the healthcare staff known fondly as NURSES' DAY!

Okay, so what is so special about nurses' day? I mean we have fathers' day and teachers' day and birthdays, so nurses's day is probably another random little additiontal holiday the healthcare staff decided that they needed/wanted. WRONG! Nurses don't get holiday on nurses day (but they do get plenty of nice presents).

Most people think that nurses are nurses because they want to marry doctors, as illustrated in the picture below...

Partially true. Well not for me. Here is what we really do during training...

Hi everyone, welcome to the bio practicals where we get to play with bones.

Like this. (That's my classmate, he thinks he's an elephant...) Also, we spend time examining models of the human body. This is one particular model I found interesting...

Odd ain't it?

This is how we do mask fitting. It's a terrible procedure really.

We get sprayed with some bitter tasting stuff, to see whether our masks are sealed shut.

And sadly, this is what we wear during normal lab sessions. It can be quite stuffy.

Meet Mr Bloody (that's what the seniors named him). He resides somewhere in the labs, and has a lovely jaw that moves elevates and depresses.

Ohoh! And here's a picture in dedication to my dear Victor who I'll only see for one more day before I shift into a new lab.

Byebye Victor! I love you T-T.

And so I gave Victor a little kiss ^^.

Okies, that's all for the Nurses' day special. I hope everyone else is enjoying themselves in their courses yeah? Happy belated nurses' day and Cheerio!

Psychology chapter 5

2007-07-30T02:21:00.000-07:00

I have attempted to find many creative ways to revise my work. This just so happens to be one. =P

Memory= an active system that receives information from the senses, organizes and alters it as it stores it away, then retrives the information from storage.

Processes of Memory:

1) Encoding- the set of mental operations that people perform on sensory information to convert that information into a form that is usable in the brain's storage system.
2) Storage- holding on to information for some period of time.
3) Retrival- getting information that is in storage into a form that can be used.

Sensory memory
-the very first stage of memory, the point at which information enters the nervous system through the sensory system.

1) Iconic memory- visual sensory memory, lasting only a fraction of a second.
Capacity: Everything that can be seen at one time.
Duration: Information that has just entered iconic memory will be pushed out very quickly by new information, a process called masking.
Eidietic imagery- the rare ability to access a visual image memory for 30secs or more.

2) Echoic memory- the brief memory of something a person has just heard.
Capacity: limited to what can be heard at any one momen and is smaller than the capacity of iconic memory.
Duration: lasts longer than iconic- about 2-4secs.

Short-term Memory (aka STM or working memory)
- the memory system in which information is held for brief periods of time while being used.

1) Selective attention- the ability to focus on only one stimulus from among all sensory input.
2)Digit-span test- memory test in which a series of numbers is read to subjects in the experiment who are then asked to recall the numbers in order.
Conclusion: Capacity of STM is about seven items or peices of information, plus or minus two items. Ranging from five to nine items.
3) Chuncking- bits of information are combined into meaningful units, or chunks, so that more information can be held in the STM.
4) Maintenance rehersal- practice of saying some information to be remembered over and over in one's head in order to maintain it in short termed memory (STMs tend to be in auditory form)
5) Duration of the STM usually lasts for about 12-30 secs without rehersal.
6) STM is subject to interference.

Long-term Memory (aka LTM)
-the system of memory into which all the information is placed to be kept more r less permanantly.

1) Elaborative rehearsal- a method of transferring information from STM into LTM by making that information meaningful in some way.

Types of LTM

1) Procedural memory (non-declarative memory)- type of long-term memory including memory for skills, procedures, habits, and conditioned responces. These memories are not concious but are implied to exist because they affect concious behaviour.
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Also include emtional associations, habits, and simple conditioned reflexes that may or may not be concious.
Anterograde amnesia- loss of memory from the point of injury or trauma forward, or the inability to form new long-term memories. Usually does not affect procedural LTM.
Procedural LTM is often called implicit memory- memory that is not easily brought into concious awareness.

2) Declarative memory- the type of LTM containing information that is concious or known (facts and knowledge).
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Semantic memory- type of declarative memory containing general knowledge, such as knowledge of language and information learned from formal education.
Episodic memory- type of declarative memory not readily avaliable to others, such as daily activities amd events.
Both of these types of memories are forms of explicit memories, which are memories that are conciously known.

Cues to help remember

1) Retrival Cue- a stimulus for remembering.
2) Encoding specificity- the tendancy for memory of information to be improved if related information is available when the memory is first formed is also available when the memory is being retrived.
--------------> State dependant learning- memories formed during a particular physiological or psychological state will be easier to recall when in a similar state.

Recall!
-type of memory retrival in which the information to be retrived must be 'pulled' from memory with very few external cues.
-------> Retrival failure- recall has failed, tip of the tongue phenomenon.

1) Serial position effect- tendency of information at the beginning and end of a body to be remembered more accurately than information in the middle of the body of information.
-------> Primary effect- tendancy to remember information at the beginning of the body of information than the information that follows.
-------> Recency effect- tendancy to remember information at the end of a body of information better than the information ahead of it.

Eyewitness Testimony

Elizabeth Loftus study.
-> What people see and hear about an event after the fact can easily affect the accuracy of their memories of the event.
->Eye witness testimony is not always reliable.

Automatic Encoding and Flashbulb Memories

1) Automatic encoding- tendancy of certain kinds of information to enter LTM with little ot no effortful encoding.
2) Flashbulb memories- type of automatic encoding that occurs because an unexpected event has strong emotional associations for the person remembering it.

Memory Retrieval Problems

->Misinformation effect- the tendancy of misleading information presented after an even to alter the memories of the event itself.

Reliability of Memory Retrieval

1) False memory syndrome- the creation of inaccurate or false memories through the suggestion of others, often while the person is under hypnosis.
2) Evidence suggests that false memories cannot be created for just any kind of memory. The memories must be at least probable.

Forgetting

1) Curve of forgetting- a graph showing a distinct pattern in which forgetting is very fast witin the first hour after learning a list and then tapers of gradually.
2) encoding failure- failure to process information into memory.

Forgetting: Memory trace theory
Memory trace- physical change in the brain that occurs when a memory is formed.

1) Decay- loss of memory due to the passage of time, during which the mrmory trace is not used.
2) Disuse- another name for decay, assuming that the memories that are not used will eventually decay and disappear.

Forgetting: Intereference theory

1) Proactive interference- memory retrival problem that occurs when older inforamtion prevents or interferes with the retrival of newer information.
2) Retroactive interference- memory retrival problem that occurs when newer information prevents or interferes with the retrival of older information.

Hophop

2007-07-27T06:37:00.000-07:00

There is this nurse in school who's reallyreally frightening.

I was waiting for the lift with my friends on lab day. The life gave one of those little 'bing' sounds and lo and behold, the door slid open to reveal the scary nurse.

"Are you allowed to wear slippers in school? Where's your landyard?" she barked at some girls standing beside me.

And from no where she whipped out those forms for reporting ill-attired students.

Right after that she shut the lift door although she was the only person standing in the life and there was a crowd outside. Either way, I wouldn't have liked to be in the same lift as she was.

Anyways...

I was taking some quizes for fun again.

The results of the one directly below made me burst out into fits of laughter.
Sorry folks, but not all the results are accurate.
I'll just put them up as they are so you may laugh with me.
(P.S. And Luanie-dear, I'm your soulmate. So I'll come to propose to you one of these days.)

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Luanie-monster~ is your soulmate.

You truly love SharShar!.

You consider Olipoopoo ^-^ your true friend.

You know that Lynn is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Annabanana =P for the rest of your life.

You secretly think J.Poh is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Felicia is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Wen Xin is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Wen Xin changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think This Guy Called Matthew... is shy and nonconfrontational. And that This Guy Called Matthew... has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

This one is sweet ^-^

What Melissa Means

M is for Mystical

E is for Extraordinary

L is for Lively

I is for Influential

S is for Serene

S is for Sweet

A is for Artistic

What Does Your Name Mean?

And this one is cute...

Your Christmas Stocking Will Be Filled With a Stuffed Animal

Either Santa got your Christmas wish many years late...
Or he secretly thinks you're a bit immature!

What Will Be In Your Christmas Stocking?

My goodness! This one is uberuber cute!

The Candy Heart You Should Give Is:

To: Olipoopoo
From: Mummy Mel

What Candy Heart Should You Give?

Bloop~

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Cookies... Mmm...

You Are a Jam Cookie

On the outside, you project a straight-laced, innocent vibe.
But on the inside, you're complex, exotic, and full of flavor.

What Kind of Cookie Are You?

Would Luanie take this? >.<

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content.
Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while.
But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

Hohoho...

You Are A Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream Girl

Creative. Expressive. Unique.

What Flavor Ice Cream Girl Are You?

Time to get myself a cup of icecream. Cheerio~

2007-07-23T22:38:00.000-07:00

Ohohoho. More quizzes. (Actually I did them cos of the pretty pictures)

Your Psyche is Green

You radiate love, empathy, and acceptance.
You are able to relax almost everyone you meet. You are naturally comforting.
Balanced and flexible, you only seem perfect!

When you are too green: you are jealous, manipulative, and deceptive

When you don't have enough green: you feel sluggish and out of sorts

What Color Is Your Psyche?

Your Career Personality: Original, Devoted, and Service Oriented

Your Ideal Careers:

Art director
Book editor
College professor
Composer
Film director
Graphic designer
Novelist
Stage actor
Psychiatrist
Writer

The Quick and Dirty Career Test

2007-07-23T02:57:00.000-07:00

Mel was a little bored, and if you're bored too you can try some of these fun tests. ^^~

Arty Kid

Whether you were a drama freak or an emo poet, you definitely were expressive and unique.

You're probably a little less weird these days - but even more talented!

Who Were You In High School?

Your Toes Should Be Blue

You're a little out there, but that means you take guys to a place that's out of this world!

Your ideal guy: Zany, hilarious, and totally unpredictable.

Stay away from: Anyone who has to get up for work in the morning

What Color Should Your Toenails Be?

You Are a Good Girl

You are 70% Good and 30% Bad
Generally speaking, you're a very good girl.
(But you don't have us totally fooled!)

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Quiz

2007-07-14T08:42:00.000-07:00

Maybe I should clean my cupboard...

I love Victor... I really do ^-^

I don't understand my optech teacher.

I lose sleep when I think too much?

People say that flossing isn't important. I beg to differ!

Love is always good to have ^^.

When I like someone I'd let them know?

Somewhere someone somehow someday sometime someplace something somewhat some...

I will always, always, always, always, always, er... hmm... -scratches head-

'forever' isn't an idea easily grasped.

I never want to live life without...

I think the current US president is George Bush, because Sharon says so. :P

I will never milk a cow?!?

My past could pass off as a history lesson.

my greatest fear tends to be my most current fear.

I get annoyed when something annoying happens?

Kisses are the best when the oral environment is decently clean. And kisses with saliva are just disgusting...

Tomorrow is the day after today ^^.

I really want a tasty plate of sashimi.

And once again... I love VICTOR! Cheerio~

2007-07-10T19:49:00.000-07:00

Just a few hours more.

I'll be taking the sec 3s and 4s about the dental labs in SHS ^^.

I'm really excited, because my course rocks.

I just came out of a rather sad test though. We had to identify teeth and were given 2mins to identify one tooth and state certain various distinguishing features. Needless to say the timing felt too short... Identifying teeth is no joke. I bet you half of the population out there (I dare say more) can't tell me what a 'left decidous mandibular lateral' is. Sigh. I hope I fare fine, I did write a load of nonsense at some stations.

But I really can't wait to show them the labs. And Victor who I should profess my love for, and maybe even the endearing Mister Bloody.

Ohoh... there's someone in the labs called Josh. I'm going to find out who he is. Maybe he's like Victor's neighbour or something. ^^

Save the earth!

2007-07-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

Mummy Mel says: WEAR GREEN!

Yeah! You heard me!

If you support saving our earth, this earth, please wear green on the 7th and 8th of this month (July).

Ohoh! Don't just think that by stamping yourself a bright shade of kelly you're saving the planet. Do something about it. And make sure you recycle all those papers and aluminium cans! -waves cane about fanatically-

Just in case you don't know, this planet and only this planet is of a proper distance from the sun (and thus the right temperature and amount of received UV rays) and has a carefully measured amount of nitrogen, oxygen and carbon dioxide to support life! You aren't going to find another carefully created planet like this one!

So make sure you keep it clean and healthy! Especially all you geog students who are supposed to appreciate this better.

All things

2007-06-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

VIBE! GATHERING OF SUPERHEROS OF SOMESORT! MOVIE MANIA THINGIE WITH LOTS OF FUN FOOD AND GAMES! ANYONE WANTS TO COME? =P I KNOW YOU WANT TO XD!

I've tried typing so many drafts. There have been so many things I want to share with you gals (and guys?), but I think I'd rather do it face to face since the font on the blog is so tiny and it's no good to strain your eyes.

I've gone to church camp which was the funnest camp I can think of ever. It did have its 'ups' and 'downs' and a whole lot of valuable lessons. I must tell you about the games we played, they were really funny, although I was tortured quite a bit. They showed us this really inspiring/touching movie... so touching I cried five times throughout. OKAY PEOPLE DON'T LAUGH! It was really touching, so you should all go watch it, I'll try find the thingie for you guys.

I went for checkup today too. Today's checkup was very weird, cause I don't think I was functioning right. It was as if my body as gone into quagmire mode and the nurses kept me on the machine longer than I'm used to. Generally I have to lie there for about 10mins without moving if not the readings will crank. But when the readings turned out quite unexpectedly, I got questions like: 'Have you been excercising more recently (a bit)?', 'are you having a fever, your body feels warm' (no) >.< 'why is your heartrate so slow? (I DON'T KNOW!!!)'

So I was trying to lie there like a log for about 20-30mins. It was UGH!

Anyways, God bless, I should be going off now.

Half a year reflection

2007-06-04T09:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterdays, a few hours ago, I went for cell where we had a quiet time of reflection on what happened during the past half year.

The past half year flew past so fast! I can hardly believe its gone. This half year felt like an adventure, so I suppose that's why I rushed through it. New school, new destinations, new friends, new cells, new CCAs, new victories... so many new things! In fact, most of the things forced me out of my comfy little life into an uttering foreign experience!

Although sometimes it acts like a rollarcoaster ride, I'm glad to say that my life has purpose and meaning. I remember how I've been told time and time again that where I am is where God wants me to be. I know it sounds cliche, but hey, its cliche because its true ^^

I hope to have a fruitful next half of year. You too! God bless you everyone!

A thousand things

2007-05-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

Looks like I've been posting so many little 'sermons' on my blog (and by accident, there seem to be some repetitions too). Maybe it's time to update all those out there who are actually curious about my life.

Okies, I promised myself that I would put this up.

1) I had 2 spot tests of which I got 2nd in class, 1 of those tests that are counted in my exams in which I am either first of second (but I can't be sure). Before my tests, I offered up a prayer and though I was shivering when I sat for the papers, I did well. My victories belong to God.

2) I'm halfway through a book called 'The case of faith' by Lee Strobel, lent to me by a friend ^^. Good stuff. Although I've been really busy these days, I found time to read this one. I recommend that you should pick up a copy.

3) I fell sick, sore throat, fever and what not. But I got well within the day itself. I really should have longer hours of rest. >.<

4) My first time leading some congregational prayer in CC. I was so nervous I was stammering. But God can use stammerers like me. For all the kindly comments received, and for all the people who have helpped me, I thank God. ^^

There, that's a little portion of my life. Right now I need to rest. I learnt from the PT students that your liver detoxifies your body from 11pm-2am. Better go let it detoxify mine.

I lost my ring

2007-05-13T03:00:00.000-07:00

I lost my ring

I had this ring I wore faithfully about my right third, it was white and had a jagged sort of pattern to it. A friend and I got these rings at the same time as a little 'friendship token'.

But being me, I left it in the clinic and lost it.

Naturally I was very upset, so I gave her a tinkle on the phone... well, she lost her's too.

But which is more important, the ring or the friend who gives the ring meaning?

One day on my way home in a taxi, I lost the cross I hung about my neck. At that point of time, I was jumping about looking for the cross. Althought it was cheap, I had some sort of sentimental attachment to it.

But which is more important, the cross or the one who gives the cross meaning?

Sometimes I need a little self evaluation. Am I putting my focus on the right thing?

Like in the case of the lost ring and cross, which do you think is more important? Having faith or the one you have faith in.

When it won't work

2007-05-05T19:34:00.000-07:00

During Campus Crusade, we had a sermon, one that was short but very meaningful.

What kind of house are you building?

By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. If what he built survives, he will receive his reward. If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames.

1 Corinthians 3: 10-15

One verse struck me in particular.

'...he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames'

For those who are Christains, and you truely believe in the salvation that God has given, do you want to build a house that is durable or one that is easily destroyed? Are you living a life that God will commend you for, or will you enter into heaven with nothing, just escaping the fires of hell?

Something for you to chew upon.

Love Letters

2007-05-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

Love Letters

Dear dearly loved,

How are you? You've just started school. Everything looks really new and exciting doesn't it? It's a great turning point in you life. But I've seen that you're nervous about it too. You wonder if you'll be able to make friends or fit in with the crowd. I'm really happy if you make new friends, but don't forget that if you're lonely, you've got me. I love you and I will always be there for you.

Love...

_______________________

Dear dearly loved,

A lot of homework huh? You've been stressed and tired recently. You don't seem to want to talk much to me about school. Sometimes, if you need help you just mutter something really quick to me. Do you know how precious your words are? Yet it's not right to treat me as a miracle machine. But in any case, if you have a change of heart, I'll be right here waiting for you. I love you.

Love...

_______________________

Dear dearly loved,

How have you been? Exams are over and since you had more free time, I was waiting for you to come back to me. But there are other things, television programmes, outings and all sorts of activities. Don't you ever wonder, how these perishables will ever return your time and devotion to them. I can. I love you.

Love...

_______________________

Dear dearly loved,

It's so sad to see you love someone who can't love you back. You've been chasing him, clinging to his every word and pandering to his every whim. Yet he can't love you and you're heart broken. I want to offer you comfort, I too have been reaching out to you in a multitude of ways, but have you forgotten me, but have you forgotten about me?

Love...

_______________________

It's in the nature of every human to find love and acceptance.

Some of us are waiting till the right somebody comes. Some of us chase after every promising opportunity. Some can't find it, give up hope and finally come to rejecting it.

Do you know that most of us have a love letter somewhere close by? It's the greatest love letter ever written (and the thickest one too!). Someone who loves you very much wrote it for you. But do you have time to pick it up?

Greatest ever love letter: The Bible

Labour Day

2007-04-30T21:18:00.000-07:00

Just in case some of you out there are curious what 'labour day' is all about, I'll take a little time to explain the origins.

Labour day (aka May day) is a day in which people commerate the labour union movement and take time to remember the economic and social achivements. It started because of this 'eight hour day' plan in which everyone should work eight hours, sleep eight hours and have eight hours of play. Some workers in Australia staged this big protest to achive this eight hour day by marching up to the parliment... and they got it! And thus Labour day was inspired from some overworked and probably underpayed workers who caused a hallabaloo infront of a government building.

Whatever it is, I'm glad to have a small rest even if its for just one day. We had a surprise quiz on dental anatomy and I thank God that I did well ^^. So far I've been pretty busy and haven't the time to do much.

I really miss my girlfriends and my girlfriend outings. Somehow, there are a whole lot more of guys in my world and I kind of miss those 'girls only' times. Not that I have anything against boys or the likes of them but I can't really seem to tune into to their frequency. And they don't giggle >.< It's quite sad.

WHAAAAAAA! I MISS OLI AND CHERLIE AND GRACIE AND ANNA AND MELC AND CHERYL LIN!!! (Shar and Luanie are not counted 'cos I see them quite a lot still. Back to my rant.) SOBSOBS! I WANNA GO OUT PLAY TOGETHER SOME TIME! WHERE ARE ALL OF YOU PEOPLE!

Okay, I need to go do some other thing. >.< Byebye!

Kindness

2007-04-26T05:53:00.000-07:00

Today I was feeling terrible. As for those who know me, I have a rather weak constitution (and no... it's not always about my heart condition). I was feeling oozy during class, having a throbbing headache.

I thought I had to crawl home, 18 MRT stops alone with my heavy dentistry books (which felt like lead blocks at that point of time). And I thought I could get a seat since I left school early at 4 something, but of course everybody rushed for the seats and I had no strength to like rush with them. I just crawled *pathetic buggy crawl* to one corner and squatted down.

Then this lovely woman in a purple frilled blouse came up and said: "Do you want to take a seat." I declined politely but she continued: "You don't look well, I think you better rest." I mumbled a thank you and lugged my bag over.

I really liked her. ^^~

But anyway people, if you remember me, offer a prayer because I've been rather sickly this week. Maybe because I am tired, or the aircorn, or a little bug I may have caught during lessons.

For those who wanna know, I've joined campus crusade. Though I think that being called a crusader sounds quite... intimidating *hauls out a big sword and attmepts to roar* O.O But the idea of it sounds really fun. I made two new friends and I hope to make more. I'd really like to go on missions too.

There's a praise and worship session coming up next week on wed at 4 or 4 30pm. I hope those in NYP can attend. =P

Happiness

2007-04-23T08:15:00.000-07:00

Some people (inclusive of myself) think our bio teacher is boring. He goes into a lot of detail and that tends to bore me to bits. However, there was something I learnt today in bio class that happened to stick in my mind.

Some people think they will be happy once they...

Graduate?

Get back at the high school bully?

Find a job?

Buy a house?

Get a car?

Find a significant other?

Get married?

Have a kid?

Well... maybe have one more kid...

Or till that kid grows up...

Retire?

Collect their CFP?

*cough.cough.*

*sound of fly buzzing*

Hmm... now what?

Habakkuk 3:17 &18 - "Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labor of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall no herd be in the stalls: Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation." (KJV)

Rejoice in the Lord and be happy!

Not now then when? Not you then who?

But in dreams

2007-04-19T05:56:00.000-07:00

Last night I had a frightful dream.

This morning I woke up, feeling something hard pressed down upon my chest.

Felt a lot as if I was sinking into my mattress. But it wasn't of course, a nice sinking feeling. I felt as if someone had slammed a lead weight against my head or something.

As most people know me, I don't go through much in life. I sit there and stare and 'think too much'. In fact, I 'dream too much' too.

Dreams take you by surprise. You never know what's coming at you but when you're in it you feel as though you've been there forever. In dreams you think, you look and you feel. You get thrown into a host of crazy situations and each time you respond with your senses, your thoughts, but if you do not, at least you will find that your emotion lingers, even after the whole episode. You may wake up with an unexplainable gleefully, or a dull throbbing pain. Dreams could very well play like reality.

Last night I had a frightful dream.

List down all the horrid nightmares I've ever had: Dreams of death. Dreams of punishment. Dreams of fleeing or being on the run. Each of the dreams pinpoints a fear and strangles you inside.

Last night I dream about abandoment.

Have I been abadnoned before? Well, not really. But I had it in my dream last night. It was so scary and vivid. I dream that I was supposed to go out with a friend, but that friend went off with someone else and forgot about me. I couldn't do anything about it. Because I saw my friend was ao happy, I said nothing. I did nothing, I couldn't even bring myself to cry just in case my friend saw me. But I had that nasty feeling in my chest as I watched them turn away without me.

I woke up, feeling numb. Okay... so it was just a dream.

Then I thought: How many friends have I taken for granted? How many friend have I not shown enough love to? How if one day they wander out of my life like what happened in my dream and I hadn't the chance to tell them I cared?

Sometimes I should take more care to care. I should really use each moment of my time spent with them to cherish them. Only God knows when we'll disappear. But before that, I want to tell all my friends this:

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! XD

Busiest day!

2007-04-17T06:36:00.000-07:00

We had a mad amount of lectures today.

I sat in the third row, trying my best not to fall asleep. It's difficult you know. I did my best to sleep early the previous night and yet I felt tired half-way through the day. Apparently, I found the teacher's speech monotonous and I was jiggling on the chair and making it squeak.

Human beings are limited things. We get hungry and tired and bored.

But as I was being overwhelmed by the work, I began to realise something.

People have called me creative and artistic, and I think I am too. But today as I was being overwhelmed by the flood of information being poured in my direction, I realised something.

God made all this. Everything from the tiniest cell to the complicated systems designed to keep our body running. I couldn't even graple with the point-form information about a single cell (we had a lecture devoted to cells today) and God made the ENTIRE being! In fact he made millions and billions and trillions (and er... what's next?) of them!

Can you imagine God fitting you into place? Fitting every cell of your body in place? Delegating a specific role to your tissues? Shaping each organ and laying each system in place?

Not only that! God fit a mind into your head to let you think. Thoughts in that mind to let you question. A heart in your chest to let you feel. Emotion in your heart to let you wonder.

Question and wonder about where God fit you in life.

Do you know that I wanted to be a childcare worker because it didn't require maths? (On a sidenote, I do love little children.)
Do you know that I wanted to be a nurse because there were so few nurses to support the people in Singapore?
Do you know that I wanted to be a writer?
An Artist perhaps?
Maybe a psychologist?
Or a full time worker in church?

I never thought I'd end up a dental student with a future of picking at peoples' cavities. (Not very glam I know. My surgical cap looks like a fuzzy shower cap T^T.)

But I must have ended up here because God fit me here, just as he fit me into being. Even if I am limited (always sleepy, always craving for chocolates and almost always restless), I have a reason for doing this course to the best of my ability! God who took so much care to fashion every cell in my body is more than deserving of my best. So why shouldn't I do my best for him?

We need love...

2007-04-13T06:51:00.000-07:00

Today I went for orientation at NYP.

My class is tiny, only 17 people. 2 guys and 15 girls.

They're quite a charming bunch really, though on the more tepid side. I'm quite surprised that I made friends. It wasn't so easy, but I was praying like crazy before I went to school. "God, I'm frightened. God, give me strength. God, please make me salt and light to this school."

But then again, I remembered that even if I didn't make many new friends here, or if I was feeling down or lonely, there is still God. That's really more than enough!

Anyways, God bless all of you! I'm really tired and I need a nap.

On a sidenote, if you haven't a purpose in life now, I tell you one. Go shine for God in your school! There you have it XD.

You called me?

2007-04-06T19:44:00.001-07:00

A minute of retrospection.

Before I started work, (or was it on the second day of work), I read a passage from a book which in summary said: "Work is a sacred calling from God."

So being me I went to work determined to carry out my sacred calling.

My first job was the easiest job in the clinic. Wash dirtied instruments.

Wash dirtied instruments.

Sacred calling from God.

Put on napkin for patient.

Sacred calling from God.

Change plastic cups.

Sacred calling from God.

Sterilize instuments.

Sacred calling from God.

Call patients.

Sacred calling from God.

Sort out moulds.

Sacred calling from God.

File cards.

Sacred calling from God.

I had to constantly remind myself that this was a Sacred calling from God. I know it sounds really, really dumb. How can looking into patients mouths and throwing out the garbage be a Sacred calling from God? It was so unglam! It really wasn't easy feeling that way.

Many people think that a Sacred calling from God should be something like to become a priest, a missionary, or something great like that. But you see, Mother Theresa once said: "I'm not called to be sucessful, I am called to be faithful." If everyone wants to be sucessful, who will be faithful in the little ways?

Knowing it in my head is one thing. Applying it is another. But knowing it is at least a start. =P I really hope that I will do my best in my Sacred calling from God.

Atonement

2007-04-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

I've been sitting here waiting for good friday to come. And its come!

Don't worry, I'm not going to preach today.

For the past few days, I've been in a rather melancholic mood. Perhaps its because life seemed so frivolous since school was out. As someone once told me: "You'd feel empty after a while of leaving school." I did pick up some books to read, but very unfortunately, they were of a more poignant sort and they left me feeling more moody than ever.

It isn't just books.

While I like spending time alone reading, there always is this longing for human connection.

I miss my friends.

Yes, I miss them.

There are people I on a weekly sort of basis, if not in person, at least on msn. There are people I pay visits too fortnightly. And then there are also those who seem to have floated away and I wonder what became of them. I pick up the phone, dial their number and press my ear close to the receiver. In my mind I rehearse my lines: "Are you free now? Let's chat a bit. Wanna go out for tea? Or maybe dinner? I don't think you'll be free for lunch right?" I always hope so hard that they want to speak with me, or want to get together again. Just a little something to show that they remember me. However, about four out of five times I get the responce: "soandso is in the toilet, could you call back later."

I think the next time I find them I'd tell them straight in the face:

"I MISS YOU!"

Well, they may freak out and run.

Anyway, the next time anyone hears that line coming from my mouth (even if the tone I use is super chirpy, super ditzy, or extremely unemotional), you can bet that person meant a whole lot to me.

Drats! I'm done venting. Have a good good friday everyone!

Forgiveness

2007-03-28T23:26:00.000-07:00

Today I feel miserable. Just miserable.

Forgiveness, the definition.

1. for·give·ness (fər-gĭv'nĭs, fôr-) Pronunciation Key n. The act of forgiving; pardon. (Download Now or Buy the Book)
The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth EditionCopyright © 2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company.Published by Houghton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved

2. forgiveness
noun
1.
compassionate feelings that support a willingness to forgive
2.
the act of excusing a mistake or offense
WordNet® 2.1, © 2005 Princeton University

forgiveness1 [fəˈgivnis] noun
the act of forgivingExample: He asked for forgiveness.
Arabic:
صَفْح، غُفْران
Chinese (Simplified):
宽恕
Chinese (Traditional):
寬恕
Czech:
odpuštění
Danish:
tilgivelse
Dutch:
vergiffenis
Estonian:
andestus
Finnish:
anteeksianto
French:
pardon
German:
die Verzeihung
Greek:
συγχώρηση
Hungarian:
bocsánat
Icelandic:
fyrirgefning
Indonesian:
maaf
Italian:
perdono
Japanese:
許し
Korean:
용서, 면제
Latvian:
piedošana
Lithuanian:
atleidimas
Norwegian:
tilgivelse, syndsforlatelse
Polish:
przebaczenie
Portuguese (Brazil):
perdão
Portuguese (Portugal):
perdão
Romanian:
iertare
Russian:
прощение
Slovak:
prepáčenie, odpustenie
Slovenian:
odpuščanje
Spanish:
perdón
Swedish:
förlåtelse
Turkish:
affetme, bağışlama

forgiveness2 [fəˈgivnis] noun
readiness to forgiveExample: He showed great forgiveness towards them.
Arabic:
تَسامُح
Chinese (Simplified):
宽大, 宽人之心
Chinese (Traditional):
寬大, 寬人之心
Czech:
ochota prominout
Danish:
vilje til at tilgive
Dutch:
vergevensgezindheid
Estonian:
andestamisvalmidus
Finnish:
anteeksiantavaisuus
French:
clémence
German:
die Versöhnlichkeit
Greek:
επιείκεια
Hungarian:
megbocsátás
Icelandic:
sáttfÿsi
Indonesian:
pemaaf
Italian:
clemenza, indulgenza
Japanese:
寛大さ
Korean:
관용
Latvian:
piedošana
Lithuanian:
atlaidumas
Norwegian:
vilje til å tilgi
Polish:
wyrozumiałość
Portuguese (Brazil):
indulgência
Portuguese (Portugal):
perdão
Romanian:
clemenţă
Russian:
всепрощение
Slovak:
zhovievavosť
Slovenian:
odpuščanje
Spanish:
misericordia, clemencia
Swedish:
överseende
Turkish:
affetme eğilimi
See also: forgiving, forgive
Kernerman English Multilingual Dictionary (Beta Version), © 2000-2006 K Dictionaries Ltd.

Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus - Cite This Source
Main Entry:
forgiveness
Part of Speech:
noun
Definition:
pardon
Synonyms:
absolution, acquittal, amnesty, charity, clemency, compassion, condonation, dispensation, exculpation, exoneration, extenuation, grace, immunity, impunity, indemnity, justification, lenience, lenity, mercy, overlooking, palliation, purgation, quarter, quittance, remission, remittal, reprieve, respite, vindication
Antonyms:
blame, condemnation
Source:
Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.3.1)Copyright © 2007 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved

I'm a priest now.

2007-03-26T23:33:00.000-07:00

I'm a priest now.

Hiphip hooray!

And I've completed my enrollment forms! Cheerio for that too.

But the best part of it all is that:

I'M BACK IN THE GUILD!!! WITH MY BESTEST GUILDMISTRESS AND MY MOST FAVOURITE HUNTER (SOON TO BE RANGER) IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! I'M HOME EVERYONE!!! YAYNESS AND YAY!

By the way, I've got a silver angel now. I decided to call her Michelle, because well... I think it suits her.

Tony Anthony came to my church. It was such a touching testimony. Of course, I really didn't expect him to be that stout. I thought he was supposed to be muscular and all. But goodness, the entire event was touching. And I didn't know so many of my friends would actually turn up. I tought that Rodderick, Mattew and Benjamin weren't coming... but they did. O.O Wow. Ah! And the clip on the father, who went on a 15 hour marathon thingie with his son really moved me (almost) to tears. Everthing was just so amazing.... and simply breathtaking! Honestly, I wished that more people could have come, but then again, we must be grateful for what we have.

On Sunday I went trekking about Macritchie (is that how you spell it?) reseviour. I had a wonderful time strolling along, looking at fish and butterflies and trees. I walked over the canopy of the rainforest and looked down thinking: I say, that's a long way to fall! Then I walked along barefooted on the planks towards the end of my journey.

One scene that struck me was when I passed through the forest, which was rather dark, I turned to see shafts of sunlight piercing through the trees and faling lightly on the floor. It was astoundingly beautiful, like golden veils come down from the canopy. It was as if an angel had come down to that very spot!

Anyway, enough og the description, this has been an eventful week. I thank all those who have been praying for me! Especially my cell group. Thanks people. ^^ Meanwhile, I would love to use my last few free days fruitfully, before I enter the poly.

I'm a priest now. I can't get over it. Hee~

Sigh with me

2007-03-08T03:50:00.000-08:00

I wish Maple would start working. It won't work and I don't like that...

I want to play with Sharon and Mr Priest and whoever intends to come online. (Because it seems like we are the only three who are active.)

My poor pretty cleric is rotting.

But I do have other things to do.

So there.

Two seconds

2007-02-25T07:52:00.000-08:00

Two seconds to think

This was something I wrote long ago... I'm just in the mood to post it up today...

Nell realised how much Santos had changed sinceshe first met him. Then, he had been so harsh and cold... and maybe selfish. His deep purple eyes would glare and his white tresses enhanced the cold steel aura about him. Now, it was all different. His eyes reminded Nell of pleansant violets growing off abandoned streets in Alberta, and his snowy hair made him look so pure. Nell wondered why... When did the changes start? They had come so gradually that she hadn't noticed it at all.

They came to a shady area where a few gravestones stood, of which one belonged to Fortune. Nell squatted down and Santos brought the lantern over the epithat.

Remember me when you hear the wind singing
When the grass grows green
When the sun is high
Remember where true fortune lies
In simples joys below the skies
Remember me
Rest In Peace
Fortune Lansky

Nell traced the words of the poem. She wondered if Fortune had written it. Her fingers came into contact with the cold cracks of white marble... it had been so long since she had last seen him. Then there was that picture Nell had seen in Madam Lansky's chamber, the picture probably placed there as it fitted the quote so well. Fortune standing in the grass with his hair pushed back by a breeze, smiling. Simple joys below the sky huh? Nell thought about it. Seemed like Fortune spent his life doing things he liked... singing, playing his guitar, slacking... and helping others. That would count as simple joys wouldn't it.

The more Nell thought about itm the more Nell wished to be happy.

Don't we all wish the same?

One moment

2007-02-23T07:40:00.000-08:00

One moment of quiet introspection.

Mel had been reflecting upon the events of this day and even Mel as the believer that she is, is not exempt from the troubles of this world.

Once, someone asked her. "If your God is so great, why does he allow evil in this world?"

Quite naturally being the Mel that she was, Mel was stumpped.

"If my God is so great, why does he allow evil in this world?"

That's a good question. God is great isn't he? So why?

Why does he allow people to go about hurting others, brutalizing them, backstabbing them, and biting them with words? Why does he allow people to hurt themselves with demoralised thoughts, with self-inflicted wounds, with additions, drugs, alcohol, cigarettes? Why does he allow people to destory this earth, polluting it, leeching off its resources and wiping out its inhabitants?

Why doesn't he wipe these evil people out? Why won't he show himself to us? Maybe if he did everyone would be so awstruck by his power, they'd turn from their own ways. Or why doesn't he just snap his fingers and make the whole world good?

If God is so great, then why?

Mel was very stumpped.

One day she was sitting down with a few other people in the church one very late night, listening to the elder speaking.

"Why doesn't God come to meet us face to face? Our God is so great that we cannot look into his face. We'd be so awstruck we'd simply be dead! Why then does God allow evil people in this world? Well, because God is a loving God, a God who works on a voluntary basis. He wants people who come to him because they love him and not because he's scared the daylights out of them. So why doesn't God snap his fingers and make the whole world good? What's so good about goodness if you've never known what evil is like?"

Isn't it true? Many people think their life is good enough and they don't believe that they need a God! Therefore, even though these few days have not been entirely easy for Mel, she will not take them as some rubbish that the world has decided to hurl at her. Instead she will take it as a reminder to lean on the only one who will never leave her.

What a long and lonely road
What a long and lonely day
What a large and lovely feeling
He's been there...
He's been there...
Every step of the way

~Melissa~

Musings

2007-02-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

Doesn't this tune sound familiar?

I was searching high and low for a pretty tune to fit this pretty background. Was going along the lines of dreamy but couldn't find anything to fit. Everything I uncovered was either too soft or whispery... But this sudden idea struck me. Then I was like: "Why not? It could work." Nothing does dreamland mix toyfactory the way maple does. ^^ This song is from the PQ room in Eos, and it gives this dreamy, light touch to the blog without coming forth as too fairytale or trite.

I can almost imagine the girl's chair floating off and carrying her with it.

A floating chair >.< I'd love to have that!

(And yes, my favourite land in the whole map of maple is Ludibrium. Lots of people think its too cheery, but I like the walking toys. Yes, walking toys >.< Muchlove, muchlove. When I set my room up I'll make it look as Ludi-like as possible. Hah! That would be fun.)

These days I've been too busy to think of my story. Currently I'm embarking on a couple of projects in one go and my schedule feels as if I've shoved it down a tightened cosert. It was disrupted when my mum suddenly announced we were going to paint the house. Things got really bad when I painted a wall, forgot that I painted it and leaned on it! There was a Melissa print on the wall and I had to coat it a second time (and I had a very large smudge on my own clothing...). >.< I wish I wasn't so forgetful.

Originally I intended to go hunting for a few trinkets, but that has to be postponed (and at the rate things are going that may never come to pass). There are lyrics I need to get ready, outings I need to plan, cell leaders I need to call, a manga which is waiting for me to scribble the first chapter into existance and a couple of friends I hope to contact since we haven't spoken to each other in ages... if you'd date from the 9th of Feburary and count that as ages.

Currently I'm slacking off a bit from coating laquer and scraping floors. The smell of the laquer is terribly pungent and it causes my nose to tickle (or otherwise I feel plain sick). But it looks like its time to get back to work.

My musing ends here. Tata.

Prologue: Waters of Meribah

2007-02-16T08:03:00.000-08:00

For once, I decided to post a little story on my blog & I sincerely hope that someone would read it. For my dearest of friends, you may find bits of this story familiar in one way or another. But don't worry too much, I'm just trying out a creative way to express myself. If anyone has any comments, feel free to leave them.

Blurb:

As long as anyone can remember, the city of Meribah has been covered in an eternal shower of water. Merlin, disturbed by the way her god-sister left, decides to uncover the history of the city along with a very special friend.

* Disclaimer: While I do know many people who happen to go by the name of 'Joshua', the 'Joshua' that I am about to portray in this story if so happens to, isn't meant to resemble any of those 'Joshua's that I know. And by reading on, you may guess (if you have the advantage of knowing me well enough) the significance of the name in the story itself.

Pleasant reading.

Prologue

Lint was stuck in the basement for a couple of days fixing the spills that refused to be fixed.

The Ebony Stacks weren't near the main canal, but a fairly large drain slipped through the high-rise apartments on either side, dividing them and forming a water street. There were basements too, under the pavement. Most of them were dull and damp and prone to spills. During the rainy season, the water from the main drain tended to run over the pavement and dribble down where it wasn't meant to go.

A couple of people had tried persuading Lint to get out of the basement. It was flooding- that much was obvious. One of these particularly concerned souls was my Daddy. He dragged his god-daughter from the leaking hole and back to our house that night.

"Wait till the rain dies down before you fix those spills", he advised her.

I was passing the room in which the three of them sat, Daddy, Lint and Joshua. He was not very far away, just hovering about. While I could not make out what Joshua was feeling, I knew that Lint wore an expression which suggested that her face had been rolled over with whitewash. Her very thin frame appeared somewhat fragile and flaky that day and her eyes bulged from being overexposed to the water.

We all did our best to keep Lint from the basements of the Ebony stacks, because we all knew it wasn't good for her... Honestly. Grandma cooked her delicious food and the rest of us smiled and smiled, hoping that our happiness would be infectious.

But it just so happened that the day Lint returned to the basement, our infectious smiling turned into an infection of some other kind.

Something had been tugging at the back of my mind when I arrived in school at about nine in the morning. I had forgotten something... I often did. I sat and thought to myself: What in the world could I have forgotten? It concerned my sister Erin... if only I could place my finger on it... today it was a special day for her. That was it! It was her birthday! And to think I had run out of the house without even wishing her so!

I turned to my friend sitting on my right. "Erin isn't going to have a happy birthday today", I spoke in a soft serious tone. "I forgot to wish her a happy birthday."

My friend blinked. "It's alright", she soothed, "You can always wish her when you get home." Her kind smile assured me.

But nothing was alright when I got home that day. Although I retired from school with one stupid ugly grin plastered onto my face, I soon found that it wouldn't remain. Mum was lying in bed puffy eyed and I knew that something had gone wrong. She called me to the bedside, wiping her tearstained face with her bony fingers. Already, as I watched her, my heart had raced its way up my throat and was thumping against my teeth. What had happened? Was was she crying?

Mum's voice rattled as she broke the news to me.

"Lint drowned," she said.

And in an instant, my entire world came crashing down around me.

To be continued...

Type written by Melissa Quake

Who am I?

2007-02-13T06:01:00.000-08:00

"Do you know what you are?

You are a marvel. You are unique.

In all the years that have passed,

there has never been another child like you."

-- Pablo Casals

Today I ask my dad about what I was like when I was little. Who was I? What was I like? What did I do?

The daddy started laughing and he told me that...

I got along well with other kids

But I liked to be alone

I asked 'normal' questions

And I spoke with the 'air'

I was peaceful and sleepy

And I was slow...

Would cry when my sister damaged my stuff

Then quite violently do her head in with a teaspoon

Loved drawing

Hated studying

Enjoyed the computer

Only by watching her sister play

Well, I was me. I think you get the picture. =P

White Sabbath

2007-02-10T16:43:00.000-08:00

Something about this Sunday morning is so pristine. ^^

Yesterday I attended my first ever LCG! I felt absolutely wonderful when I was there. So far, the 24 hours I've been given daily seem so much more crammed then they were before. Sometimes I feel pooped, working outside and in the church can be exhaustive! But life has also been extrememly meaningful nowadays. After all, the verse Nehimiah 8:10 quotes: "Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

Ah! Congrats to all those who did well for your 'O' levels! Whatever marks you get, bear in mind that if you lean on God, he has plans to prosper you and not to harm you!

My results were pretty good. 13 points for my L1R5 and 8 points for my L1B4. Praise God! Looks like I can go where I would have liked too. I do hope to be a nurse, because there aren't enough nurses in Singapore. They say nursing is tough. You have to go about tending to people who may spread their illness to you, cleaning them up, jabbing people (ouch!) and get insulted by patients. No kidding, I once got barked at by an irritatable patient over the phone and I was shivering in fright =P. But then again, I've been told by various people that I have that "nurse-sort-of" face. (Yeah, even with my hair dyed...)

There have been other things I have been doing such as going for a concert with my friends and a Bible study my friend brought me too. I really enjoyed it and it makes me realise that I have to extend my borders beyond my own church. There are other Christians out there and they are God's children like us indeed!

Okay, enough rambling. Time for me to freshen up and go.

2007-02-09T15:48:00.000-08:00

Artist: Casting Crowns
Album: Lifesong
Year: 2005
Title:
Does Anybody Hear Her

She is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
She is trying
But the canyon’s ever widening
In the depths of her cold heart
So she sets out on another misadventure just to find
She’s another two years older
And she’s three more steps behind

Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even knows she’s going down today
Under the shadow of our steeple
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that’s tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her?
Can anybody see?

She is yearning
For shelter and affection
That she never found at home
She is searching
For a hero to ride in
To ride in and save the day
And in walks her prince charming
And he knows just what to say
Momentary lapse of reason
And she gives herself away

If judgement looms under every steeple If lofty glances from lofty people
Can’t see past her scarlet letter
And we never even met her

He is running
A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction

2007-02-08T05:42:00.000-08:00

When I see the beauty
Of the sunset’s glory
Amazing artistry
Across the evening sky
When I feel the mystery
Of a distant galaxy
It awes and humbles me
To be loved by a God so high

What can I do but thank you
What can I do but give
My life to you
Hallelujah, hallelujah
What can I do but praise you
Every day make everything I do
A hallelujah, a hallelujah
Hallelujah

When I hear the story
Of a God of mercy
Who shared humanity
And suffered by our side
Of the cross they nailed you to
That could not hold you
Now you’re making all things new
By the power of your risen life

Paul Baloche & Graham KendrickCopyright © 2005 Integrity's Hosanna! Music 1000 Cody Road, Mobile, AL 36695 and Make Way Music, www.grahamkendrick.co.uk All rights reserved. International copyright secured. Used by permission.

Setting time aside

2007-02-02T09:17:00.000-08:00

God has time for all of us.
Do you have time for him?

We rush about our daily lives, doing the same old things over and over again. Some people are workaholics, they work all day at a job they think stinks, but they still do it. Some people just do their best at acomplishing nothing. Have you ever wondered where all this mechanical motion leads to?

Well, one things for certain- you still die in the end. Then what next? Heaven or hell? We'll go to heaven if we believe. And we only believe in something we invest time in.

Set aside time each day for God, invest your time in him and you'll find yourself investing in eternity!

You never know when the Master is coming...

2007-01-28T05:58:00.000-08:00

Yups, our cell has a new name: Second Coming! Isn't that lovely! Haha. I think its a cool name, much nicer sounding than Baggies.

Here's a few verses we were given:

Revelations 22 10-13

Then he told me, "Do not seal up the words of the prophecy of this book, because the time is near. Let him who does wrong continue to do wrong; let him who is vile continue to be vile; let him who does right continue to do right; and let him who is holy continue to be holy."

"Behold, I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he had done..."

Not everyone senses the urgency of the Lord's coming. But He is indeed coming sooner than what he was about 2000 years ago! So everyone buck up! 'Cause you never know when the Master is coming!

Highway splits

2007-01-26T07:20:00.000-08:00

All my life I've been moving along a highway to heaven.

Very often, the road is straight. As a little baby, I ate, slept and lazed around. As a child, I went to primary school and admired nuns in their prety habits. As a teenager, I waddled through secondary school in a rather sloppy manner...

But there comes a time where I find that there are splits in the highway. What do I want to do in life? I know that either way I choose to go, the highway still leads to heaven. But which road do I choose so that I'll have the most stuff to bring to my destination? Currently, I'm thinking of four prospects: nursing, early childhood education, animation and psycology.

Also, when I make my turning point, I'll be leaving my friends behind. Or rather, they will be making their various turning points as well. And most of them already have! I was away in Laos for a week or so and when I came back... poof! Most of them were gone! In JCs or doing work. So I was the only one lagging behind, feeling strange that everthing around me had changed so much over that short span of time. I have to admit, it was rather lonely because I used to meet them often but now we don't seem to have the time for each other.

Sometimes I feel as if I'm going solo. But God is there. That's for sure. ^^

I pray I will pass my maths and I pray I will pass well. Right now, I should go to bed. Hee!

Things I must amend

2007-01-25T06:17:00.000-08:00

I must try my best not to drop things in the clinic. I keep dropping them. I even let a probe slip and poke my finger! Luckily I was wearing gloves so I didn't cut myself. But I got scratched and it hurt a fair bit.

I've been making a terrible amount of bloopers these days. Still, I willl do my best to learn from them!

Work is tiring but enjoyable. I learn new things all the time and it's really rather wonderful. I know I'm like terribly butterfingered, and I cannot open the straight hand peice unless I wear gloves (and all the other nurses need not!), but I will still find my way about, somehow or another.

I was reading a book which told me that work is a sacred calling from God. So I must be diligent in doing my work, even if my boss is my daddy and I'll clueless about the pay. I hope I can be quick to learn though and that these skills will be useful later on in my life.

Cheerio! ^^

1 Corinthians 14

2007-01-22T18:53:00.000-08:00

1 Corinthians 13

Love

1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

________________

Yesterday mummy told me that I couldn't work and so I was in a foul mood. But that was my fault (I forgot to clean a drawer I was supposed to). But sitting at home being miserable was unsatistfying and unproductive, so now I'm making Valentine's day presents!

I love Valentine's day! Haha, no. I've never got a boyfriend before (I was in an all girls school. Haha.)

For Mel, Valentine's is a special day dedicated to remembering love. What is love? Well, the definition is all up there in 1 Cornithians 13. It's one of my favourite chapters in the Bible as it speaks a whole lot. What do I like best in the passage? I think I like the fact that 'love keeps no reccord of wrongs' best. Just like Jesus who came to forgive us!

Sometimes I find it very hard to forgive other people. I suppose it's only natural to feel angry and miserable when you feel you have been wronged, then you feel as if you want to go out there and hate everything around you, or hurt yourself just to spite someone. These emotions usually blind us and then we get stuck, or go stumbling about. It really gets difficult to forgive at times like this.

But Jesus died for us to forgive our sins didn't he? And it wasn't his fault that he died! Anyways, God wants us to forgive others not only because it relieves them of guilt, but also to forgive because in the end, you benefit from letting go of your grudges.

So there, I have rambled a little too much. I'll be signing off now. ^^

Sigh

2007-01-22T02:59:00.000-08:00

I think I've been complaining too much recently. One day if I complain too much, this bad habit will overtake me and gobble me up whole.

It's just that there have been a couple of things weighing on my mind recently and it's made me feel rather upset. So all those out there, please pray for me. Your prayers are very important because God listens to them.

Nursing

2007-01-19T00:02:00.000-08:00

I got my pretty nurse uniform today. It's lavander and purple with stripes and lace.

I'm going to be a dental assitant soon. Today I watched two operations: implant op and wisdom tooth op.

Why do they call it a wisdom tooth? It doesn't seem to give me anything but a nasty pain in my mouth. No extra gray matter- zero, zliche, nada, none.

Anyway I'm sleepy. Time to go to sleep.

Paint the world with ice cream!

2007-01-18T01:32:00.000-08:00

Here is something fun I found on the net. It's not nessarily true, but it's interesting.

Pick your favorite of the ice cream flavors listed below and find out what it says about your personality.
1. Vanilla2. Chocolate3. Butter pecan4. Banana5. Strawberry6. Chocolate chip

Analysis

If you like vanilla, you are colorful, impulsive, a risk taker who sets high goals and has high expectations of yourself. You also enjoy close family relationships. Gregarious, lives a hectic life. Easily suggestible, expressive, idealistic; a private person.(Prototype lovelorn housewife.)

If you like chocolate, you are lively, creative, dramatic, charming, enthusiastic and the life of the party. Chocolate fans enjoy being at the center of attention and can become bored with the usual routine. Seductive, well-dressed, extroverted, easily influenced, a follower, intuitive, enjoys intimate relationships.(Prototype: feminine woman, macho man.)

If you like butter pecan, you are orderly, perfectionist, careful, detail-oriented, conscientious, ethical and fiscally conservative. You are also competitive, aggressive in sports and the take-charge type of personality.(Prototype: executive, secretary.)

If you like banana, you are easy going, well adjusted, generous, honest and empathetic.(Prototype: the perfect husband, wife, parent or child.)

If you like strawberry, you are shy, yet emotionally robust, skeptical, detail-oriented, opinionated, introverted and self critical. Easily made to feel guilty; cranky, pessimistic, low self-esteem.(Prototype: bureaucrat, journalist.)

If you like chocolate chip, you are generous, competitive and accomplished. You are charming in social situations, ambitious and competent. A visionary, a conqueror, enjoys being catered to, a go-getter, intolerant of defeat.(Prototype: Industry leaders, voted most likely to succeed in school.)

I like all of them. All icecreams are good. But if I have a prefernce, I like vanilla, strawberry and chocolate chip. Ahh! See I can't choose!

Cows go Home!

2007-01-17T04:15:00.000-08:00

I just revamped the blog! Oh now it has all the pretty colours that I like *Thumbs up*. Only that the words are kinda moot and emotional *Thumbs detatch o.o*. Sometimes its so hard to find a optimistic blogskin without it being over-cheery, so I have to make do with something that is a tad darker. Sorry folks, I'm not the emo kind so even if you hear a sad mournful tune tinkling in the background, well that's because I like the melody. If I had broken wings I'd rush over some glue and stick back the feathers.

Okay, I haven't yet done my advertising for my trip to Laos have I? It's a lovely place you know. The air is cool and relatively dry in the mountainous regions. The mountains are the kind of limestone mountains, stripey irregularly shaped, like clumps of coral rolled over with trees that grow horizontally due to the sheer steepness. Yes, the moutains are scarily steep, very lovely and postcard pretty, but for your own safety please do not try climbing them!

The cows walk to their feeding grounds in the morning on their own, then they return in the evening. Very cute, since I have a penchant for animals that go 'moo'.

The village there is rather impoverished. There are animals running all around the sand pits: dogs, chickens, ducks, pigs and even a MONKEY! It came to disturb us during lunch. o.o Well, the classrooms are terribly dusty and some students don't have chairs. The kids are packed about sixty into a classroom, dressed in sand-covered and sometimes torn uniforms! Some run about barefooted too! I taught them a little of this and that, English for instance, and some origami. But the little ones are very sweet and curious. I love the shy ones >.<. Hee!

Also, the hygeine in the village is very poor. Well, there are animals running in and about and everywhere. My father who was there to do dental work had to keep the medical needles and bloodstained objects in another bag to be disposed somewhere else to prevent cross infection. That is because the villagers tend to search the rubbish for things they can sell off. :( It's really very sad to look at.

So I am not telling you these things to frighten you off. Please come and help these people! If you have any skills to offer, please let me know. Sign up for missions and spread God's love ya? Now I have to go since my sis would like to use the computer.

Cheerio.

Sad: The definition

2007-01-12T19:22:00.000-08:00

Everybody feels down once in a while.

sad /sæd/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[sad] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–adjective, sad·der, sad·dest.
1.
affected by unhappiness or grief; sorrowful or mournful: to feel sad because a close friend has moved away.
2.
expressive of or characterized by sorrow: sad looks; a sad song.
3.
causing sorrow: a sad disappointment; sad news.
4.
(of color) somber, dark, or dull; drab.
5.
deplorably bad; sorry: a sad attempt.
6.
Obsolete. firm or steadfast.
[Origin: bef. 1000; ME; OE sæd grave, heavy, weary, orig. sated, full; c. G satt, Goth saths full, satisfied; akin to L satis enough, satur sated, Gk hádén enough. See satiate, saturate] —Related forms
sadly, adverb
sadness, noun
—Synonyms 1. unhappy, despondent, disconsolate, discouraged, gloomy, downcast, downhearted, depressed, dejected, melancholy.
—Antonyms 1. happy.
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.

Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus - Cite This Source
Main Entry:
sad
Part of Speech:
adjective 1
Definition:
unhappy
Synonyms:
bereaved, bitter, blue*, cheerless, dejected, depressed, despairing, despondent, disconsolate, dismal, distressed, doleful, down, downcast, forlorn, gloomy, glum, grief-stricken, grieved, heartbroken, heartsick, heavy-hearted, hurting, in doldrums*, in grief, languishing, low, low-spirited, lugubrious, melancholy, morbid, morose, mournful, pensive, pessimistic, somber, sorrowful, sorry, troubled, weeping, wistful, woebegone
Antonyms:
cheerful, happy
Source:
Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.3.1)Copyright © 2007 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved.* = informal or slang

DIY: Do it yourself

2007-01-02T05:29:00.000-08:00

Dada was talking to me about finding a guy in the future. So I gave it a little thought and decided that I would compile a list of what Mr Right would be like.

Importance rating. ***** as the highest and * as the lowest.

1) He must love GOD *****- hey, if he loves God he'd love everyone else. Oh and that would ensure he's got good morals too.

2) He must honour his parents ****- so that I know if he gets familiar with me he won't chuck me aside. Of course if his parents are like hardcore abusers then I don't really blame him...

3) He must love me ****- well, why else would he be Mr Right if he didn't?

4) Must be a friend ****- so that he's be used to all my quirks. he doesn't have to like them, just tolerate them...

5) He must be good at decision making ****- cause I don't like to do that sort of stuff.

6) Have a decent job ****- nothing against my morals that is.

7) Outgoing ***- or friendly at least, because I'm usually quiet. And he must be able to treat everyone with equal respect whether he/she's fat or ugly or anorexic.

8) Like art **- not all guys are suckers for beauty, so there...

9) Likes books **- so he won't see me as a nerd... and we'll have something in common.

10) Hmm... good personal hygene ** (come to think of it I'll put ****)- yeah, that one is very important. XD

Okies... exhausted my list. Will be away for about nine days so pray for me ya? Meanwhile for those who are starting school, God bless your term and year.

Happy New Year everyone. God loves you!

It's coloured

2006-12-29T04:18:00.000-08:00

Today Anna and I went out together and we did the most outrages thing Mel had ever done before.

We dyed Mel's hair! RAWR!

Mel left Anna to do the picking of the dye and the dying itself. This also happened at the salon. I told the hair dresser: "Anything". That's what she did.

My brother and mum think I look like a punk. My sister says I look like an elf. Personally I think I look like a muffin.

But Muffins are tasty. ^^

Still, even if I do look like erm an elf/punk/muffin thingie, I still am the same crazy Mel that I have always been. Appearances do not always reflect who we are. ^^

It lacks colour.

2006-12-28T03:18:00.000-08:00

Woot! Today I just snipped off about four inches of hair! Something new for the new year. It doesn't look bad, in fact I like it better this way ^^. I may even do a DIY dye, for the sake (and perhaps even the experience) of doing so.

Yes, can't you feel it? The earth has almost completed another revolution about the sun, in other words, the new year is soso close! And Mel is excited.

I remember some of the past new years which were in every sense ruined. Once I got scolded for something I thought was unreasonable (now since I have given it more thought perhaps it isn't so unjustified at all). Another time I had to scrub floor mats on new year's day itself. When I was about eleven there came a new year in which I was plagued by an itchy throat and a fever. And there were those new years I simply lived through without knowing they came by at all.

Maybe for you, whoever you are who is reading this entry, the new year is just another year, beginning on just another day, nothing special at all. But God made each and everyday to be special. Just like he made each and everyone special. If the new year is another special day the new year is specialspecial indeed!

Therefore if you commit anything, according to God's will into his hands, he will protect you and guide you. The new year will be something to look forward to, as you learn and grow.

Okies, I just about done rambling. God bless the reader of this blog!

Rawr!

2006-12-26T03:32:00.000-08:00

Something is wrong with the nasty blog. Mozilla works it but without music. Internet explorer works the music but the blog itself won't come on. Heyo computer! Where's the synergy!?!

I think it doesn't like me. *sniff*

It's been raining all day long, the temperature has dropped to about 26 degrees, and Mel has been pretty bored. I've been sleeping and reading most of the time. Everything feels like it's going into quagmire mode as the morning (which I wasted sleeping till 10 45) drags on into afternoon and the evening comes crawling by.

Yes, it's still crawling...

CAN'T YOU CRAWL ANY FASTER!?!

Mel has no more drive to read anymore. T.T...

It's not that I'm not grateful for the weather, or the holidays (I really love the holidays), or my books. Perhaps the discontentment comes from the lack of... human interaction. Huuuuullllllloooooo friends! Where did you all go? Yes, they are mainly being lazy and shuffling about in their own homes watching television. XD I would sucker up to the television if it could respond to me. Sadly, it doesn't.

Or perhaps I just lack inspiration, staring at the same surroundings like a goldfish in a tank. No wonder goldfish have such a short memory span, or else they'd be typing essays on a blog the way I am now. Time to go find some inspiration. I should go out rambling one of these days, except that the weather hasn't been kindly and my umbrella may snap (Umbrellas aree fragile things).

I wish someone would come rambling with me. I'm so desperately bored almost any sort of company would do. Even my little sister. -_-" (No offence Edel)

Love: The Definition

2006-12-25T04:52:00.000-08:00

About one more week before the year comes to an end.

10 things that happened this year:

1)I made friends with Cherlie! (Cherlie if you ever come across this, Mel wants you to know that Mel always wanted to be your friend! Lol.)

2)Became an intern and met the VEGGIES LITTLE!

3)Got eight goldfish.

4)Had the most horrible misunderstanding of her life. But it worked out anyway. Luanie, I love you.

5)Started Mapling.

6)Went to Thailand and had a fun time.

7)For some alien and forgotten reason, became a mummy and god-ma! -_-"

8)Stayed back to study. (And hid her daughter and god-daughter's story books under the sofa so that they would focus on their work. Yes Oli, I am confessing here.)

9)Went to LAN. (Does that count? I've never really been to a place like LAN before.) Made friends there. Three cheers for all my new friends! Hiphip hooray! Hiphip hooray! Hiphip hooray! I hope to get to know all of you better. XD

10)Completed her 'O' levels.

Come to think of it, this year was better than the last. I didn't fall sick as often, and my mum's condition has improved tremendously. So either way I didn't need to go to the hospital as much as I did in 2005. I've been getting chest pains lately though, so pray for me ya? XD

God has blessed Mel a whole lot this year.

XD God bless you too.

Christmas!

2006-12-24T18:27:00.000-08:00

I typed this entry, found out I had been doing it in third person, realised how retarded I sounded and redid it in first person. Now I strive not to talk in third person *tries very hard* GAH! I don't think I'll be able to stick to first person for long. It's kinda habitual... I didn't realise I talked in third person till I was told this year... (apparently, I think I've been speaking in third person since primary 5/6 abouts?)

Anyways I finally managed to put up my blog, was trying to fit those lyrics in with the timing of the music (it obviously didn't work but yeah...)And I'll have to re-add all my links. Hulllooooo links? Where did you go?

Last night, Sha, Oli, Furt and I went to Orchard. It was crowded and O.O full of foam spray. I had never experienced anything like that before! It was pretty exciting, like an adventure. XD We even made Furt do a dare, which I shan't go into details for his sake. Haha. The funnest thing I did in ages.

Butbut, today I want to tell everyone (which I can't, so I shall tell all my friends) that Jesus loves you! YAY! That's what Christmas is all about.

And now Mel shall wish everyone a Merry Christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!