Thursday, April 19, 2007
But in dreams /5:56 AM
Last night I had a frightful dream.
This morning I woke up, feeling something hard pressed down upon my chest. Felt a lot as if I was sinking into my mattress. But it wasn't of course, a nice sinking feeling. I felt as if someone had slammed a lead weight against my head or something.
As most people know me, I don't go through much in life. I sit there and stare and 'think too much'. In fact, I 'dream too much' too.
Dreams take you by surprise. You never know what's coming at you but when you're in it you feel as though you've been there forever. In dreams you think, you look and you feel. You get thrown into a host of crazy situations and each time you respond with your senses, your thoughts, but if you do not, at least you will find that your emotion lingers, even after the whole episode. You may wake up with an unexplainable gleefully, or a dull throbbing pain. Dreams could very well play like reality.
Last night I had a frightful dream.
List down all the horrid nightmares I've ever had: Dreams of death. Dreams of punishment. Dreams of fleeing or being on the run. Each of the dreams pinpoints a fear and strangles you inside.
Last night I dream about abandoment.
Have I been abadnoned before? Well, not really. But I had it in my dream last night. It was so scary and vivid. I dream that I was supposed to go out with a friend, but that friend went off with someone else and forgot about me. I couldn't do anything about it. Because I saw my friend was ao happy, I said nothing. I did nothing, I couldn't even bring myself to cry just in case my friend saw me. But I had that nasty feeling in my chest as I watched them turn away without me.
I woke up, feeling numb. Okay... so it was just a dream.
Then I thought:
How many friends have I taken for granted? How many friend have I not shown enough love to? How if one day they wander out of my life like what happened in my dream and I hadn't the chance to tell them I cared?Sometimes I should take more care to care. I should really use each moment of my time spent with them to cherish them. Only God knows when we'll disappear. But before that, I want to tell all my friends this:
LOVE YOU GUYS!!! XD
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